AIGH.  I'M A COMPLETE HACK, MY WRITING IS STILTED, I HAVE NO GRASP OF PROSE, ALL MY IDEAS ARE STUPID AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING EVER.  I'M GOING TO MOVE TO BOLIVIA OR WHEREVER THEY GROW BANANAS AND BECOME A BANANA FARMER AND CARRY A HUGE KNIFE TO KILL THE BANANA SPIDERS BECAUSE THERE WILL BE BANANA SPIDERS.

WHY DID I EVER WANT TO DO THIS ( Read more... )

 The Numbers ( Read more... )

 I woke up this morning with Lady Gaga's "Born This Way" going through my head. More importantly, I woke up feeling tense which is an AWFUL way to start the day and unfortunately it's only gotten worse. Sitting in my ED class, I'm realizing that I have a LOT of stuff due in the next week or so and I'm anxious about getting it all done ( Read more... )

 Two college-related miniature panic attacks in the last two days has absolutely wiped me out, both physically and emotionally ( Read more... )

Huge stressy English Renaissance Lit paper is DONE!  Just gotta email it in.  I'm already done with two other classes for the semester and after my Karate "final" this afternoon, that will be another one.  Then it's my American Public Policy final on Saturday, Art on Tuesday and my English Renaissance Lit final on Wednesday and I am THE HELL OUT OF ( Read more... )

 Why why why why why why WHY don't I ever realize that I have a stupid question to ask my professor about the format of the paper/project/whatever until THE NIGHT BEFORE IT'S DUE?

If anyone needs me, I am going to be hitting my head against my keyboard.

This is why I have a "see Xan fail" tag.

It's 4 in the morning and I can't sleep.  I've been tossing and turning for over an hour and I remain relentlessly and oppressively awake.  I read once somewhere that the worst thing you can do if you can't fall asleep is stay in bed, so I decided that now is as good a time as any to do some catch-up posting.

Yes, I am posting to you from exotic ( Read more... )

Due to reasons that are too long and drawn-out to get into now, I am EXTREMELY anxious about moving to Lubbock tomorrow.  It has nothing to do with classes or the actual SCHOOL part of going back to school and entirely to do with the place and people where and with whom I will supposedly be living ( Read more... )

*points at tile above*  I warned ya.

So the latest family joke is that my upper lip is "Mordor" because I have a massive fever blister there that I had to get rid of and now it is disgusting and red and scabby.  It's finally healing itself up now but for a while I would look into the mirror and expect to see the Eye of Sauron looking back at me ( Read more... )

I feel like my life has suddenly turned into a shoujo manga.   Christ.

Details to follow.  I'm sure I'm just overreacting to everything.  As usual.