Yesterday my ballet instructor told me I have a beautiful body for ballet, and beautiful feet for ballet, and said as soon as I felt ready I could do pointe. It made me so happy to hear all that! I am so excited to have found this class. I love it. I have missed ballet for over a decade now. Quitting is one of a small handful of regrets I have ( Read more... )

Sometimes it just hits me like a ton of bricks, like this intense wave of sadness that just consumes me. And out of nowhere I'll burst into tears, even if I was just fine a minute earlier ( Read more... )

I feel nauseous and uneasy. This week has been made of such failure. I feel like all I've done for this week is watch hours and hours of TV, meanwhile sitting in the filth of my apartment, accomplishing nothing. I can't focus at work at all. I can't sleep at night because my mind is racing. I haven't made it to the gym in the morning yet this ( Read more... )

Today was miserable. Whenever I was comfortably indoors it was sunny and beautiful but whenever I went outside it was raining and disgusting. And I didn't have an umbrella. I guess that was kind of a perfect metaphor for my day. I hate the rain, but today the sun kind of annoyed me just as much as the rain did. Lately I've been itching for ( Read more... )

So what was it that vexed me enough this morning to actually drag myself out of bed? Not my alarm clock. Not my cat. No, it was the obnoxious sound of Hilary Clinton's voice on my television. I'm really disappointed about how everything turned out yesterday and for the first time since Super Tuesday I'm kind of nervous. I do not want to see ( Read more... )

I had a terribly disturbing dream about my dad last night. I think I can probably attribute it to watching the 20/20 investigation about "Bodies" shortly before heading to bed. The dream was really so awful... ugh I can't even think about it. I'm still shaken ( Read more... )

How am I supposed to handle all of this car business without him? They're apparently taking apart the whole motor to figure out what is wrong. It won't be a quick fix and it certainly doesn't sound like it'll be anything close to inexpensive either. At least I have a mechanic I can trust, but how am I supposed to know what to do? What if I have ( Read more... )

I should be studying right now, just like I should've been for the past few days. But I just can't start. Every time I try to be productive I just feel like a failure or just can't even start. *sigh ( Read more... )

First, all I have to say about Heroes is that I have never been more torn in my entire life. I couldn't decide who I was more jealous of... Peter or Elle. I think part of my brain exploded. This show is going to tear me into a million pieces come December, I know it ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think about my dad and I can't even breathe ( Read more... )