Current weight. 143lbs ( Read more... )

I feel soo worthless disgusting and fat today. I tried doing the salt water flush... nothing came out! seriously wtf! I have done it like a million times before and for some reason yesterday it didn't work so I ended up consuming like 2 litres of salty water last morning without voiding...:P sorry if that grosses some of you out. I have a constant ( Read more... )

CW 146.6
HW 186.6

Breakfast oatmeal 140 cals
Lunch cottage cheese and berry pack. 90 cals
Dinner spinach 20 cals with dressing 30 cals. Total. 380
I can do this!

So I had the great idea to get stoned this morning. I got really hungry and ended up b/p before I even left my house for work! That must be a new record! Then i continued to go to work and stuff my freakin face with cookies! I brought my healthy food but now that seems like a waste. I dont want to eat my healthy food on top of the cookies I crammed ( Read more... )

CW: 149.6 GRrr ( Read more... )

I wish I had this machine that I read about in a book that you paid money and stepped in and it magically removed fat from you. I remember this book. I read it when I was very young and it has always been in the back of my head ( Read more... )

My goal for August is to reach 142lbs I really think I can do this! Hopefully I can write here on September 1st that I did it!

Well yesterday wan't as good as I had hoped. I did eat a little. No where near the amounts I have been shoving into me. I just haven't seen the scale move at all. Sigh.

I took some lorazepam last night. It made everything much easier to handle. All my worries are some how less significant.

Today I plan on eating ------ NOTHING..... until I get home ( Read more... )

God damn it I ate a cookie. Fuck. 50 cals. I was gonna fast today but I guess I fucked it up. Stupid girl.

Just testing this out