Here I Am! Please Come Out and Play with Me...
Fever has been gone for about two days now. Sore throat as well! But, the tension is aggravating me mainly cause I'm working myself up. A lot like I used to in college. It's like I have a talent for focusing my energy into wherever will result in the most panic. If only I could use these powers for good!
I remember last night I was so upset and scared of something happening, but the reason I was working myself up is because I am not happy with myself these days. I am beyond the moon thrilled to be married to Ian. I am happy with my house and my baby girls. But, I am so unhappy professionally and I'm feeling lonely in my social circle. A part of me feels like I'm compromising myself. Mainly on the job front.
And when I think of anxiety triggers, I just realized a huge one. I had a phone interview today. It was for a Residential Instructor position and the woman scheduled a follow-up. I can't tell if they have high turn-over and just need bodies, or if she was really impressed by my resume. So I'll do the nicer thing for my self and assume it was my ROCK STAR RESUME! Adrienne even once told me that she thought they'd be excited to have someone like me.
The position is instructional, but it's a lot of life skills, goal setting, and even some occupational therapy for teens who have developmental, behavioral, or emotional disabilities. After watching my sister and husband work in their roles and listen to their stories, I wanted to do something similar.
When I logged into LiveJournal I saw a prompt asking what would prevent you from changing your job. There was probably more, but that's what stuck out the most to me as I multi-tasking (I hate multi-tasking). The answer is pretty simple, I'm concerned about money. We could live on one salary and it would be tight. With our current combined salaries we can pay down bills and stockpile savings much faster. And for the most part, I don't have a TON of debt. It's mainly a point of pride?
And when I investigate this new organization I feel like I'm seeing red flags. For example, no retirement plan. I'm always skeptical about retirement plans (I work with retirement industry professionals, hah), but I still want the option! It indicates some regard for employees especially if they're providing a match or some other incentive. I also find it suspicious when a company discontinues a retirement plan and there's no indication of a new plan being offered.
Already I'm talking myself out of this, but there's a different me here. When I was younger I leapt at opportunities. And while the experiences lead to some amazing events in my life (like meeting the author of The Magic School Bus series), a lot of times I was set back by it. This kind of caution is usually put down by a lot of people. And that makes me insecure.
I remember last night I was so upset and scared of something happening, but the reason I was working myself up is because I am not happy with myself these days. I am beyond the moon thrilled to be married to Ian. I am happy with my house and my baby girls. But, I am so unhappy professionally and I'm feeling lonely in my social circle. A part of me feels like I'm compromising myself. Mainly on the job front.
And when I think of anxiety triggers, I just realized a huge one. I had a phone interview today. It was for a Residential Instructor position and the woman scheduled a follow-up. I can't tell if they have high turn-over and just need bodies, or if she was really impressed by my resume. So I'll do the nicer thing for my self and assume it was my ROCK STAR RESUME! Adrienne even once told me that she thought they'd be excited to have someone like me.
The position is instructional, but it's a lot of life skills, goal setting, and even some occupational therapy for teens who have developmental, behavioral, or emotional disabilities. After watching my sister and husband work in their roles and listen to their stories, I wanted to do something similar.
When I logged into LiveJournal I saw a prompt asking what would prevent you from changing your job. There was probably more, but that's what stuck out the most to me as I multi-tasking (I hate multi-tasking). The answer is pretty simple, I'm concerned about money. We could live on one salary and it would be tight. With our current combined salaries we can pay down bills and stockpile savings much faster. And for the most part, I don't have a TON of debt. It's mainly a point of pride?
And when I investigate this new organization I feel like I'm seeing red flags. For example, no retirement plan. I'm always skeptical about retirement plans (I work with retirement industry professionals, hah), but I still want the option! It indicates some regard for employees especially if they're providing a match or some other incentive. I also find it suspicious when a company discontinues a retirement plan and there's no indication of a new plan being offered.
Already I'm talking myself out of this, but there's a different me here. When I was younger I leapt at opportunities. And while the experiences lead to some amazing events in my life (like meeting the author of The Magic School Bus series), a lot of times I was set back by it. This kind of caution is usually put down by a lot of people. And that makes me insecure.