Hope you find yourself in a low place like home

[icouldfakeit]

William was all mad at me still. I didn't know why, he doesn't make alot of sense. Think he's still mad cause I didn't kill her. If he thought he could do better he should go kill her. Stupid....vampire. Thought he knew everything but he wasn't the only one that talked to me. Nope. Spike thought he was my only friend but he didn't know anything.

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[broody_manpire]

I can't say I was out looking for her after what happened earlier in the evening, that was absolute insanity with Xander and that spell. Hopefully that boy learned his lesson and wouldn't play with magic ever again, doubtful but someone's got to hope for it. I had been avoiding, that's a bad word but for the lack of a better one, I had been avoiding Faith. It was slightly awkward watching her manhandle the poor guy, disturbing fell in there somewhere too. Plus I felt badly for totally punching her out and locking her in that cage in the library.

I was passing by her house just to make sure everything was alright when I noticed someone climbing up the tree near her window, and not just anyone. Buffy. I narrowed my eyes and watched what she was doing, peeking into Faith's window which wasn't going to happen. I quietly walked to the tree and reached up grabbing hold of her ankle and jerking her peeping Tom ass down from where it didn't belong. Only... it kind of did

[icouldfakeit]

I rolled my eyes. He always talked way too much. William said so too. Angel talks too much but never really said anything at all. He didn't see me either. Like really see me. Better than she did but still, he only saw her really. Just like the rest of them. She always got what she wanted. What do I get? William? He doesn't even like me

[broody_manpire]

She's a vampire Slayer, she means she used to be a vampire Slayer. She was just a vampire now, and one that was going to go after Faith again eventually. I couldn't allow her to hurt Faith or Wes or anyone again, the short time I've been here I've become invested in all these humans. Probably something she didn't get being dead now, who knows what she got actually because she was walking me in circles with her insanity

[icouldfakeit]

I started laughing cause really he was pretty funny. He wanted to be friends? I didn't really have any friends I know that I should want them and I do but...we couldn't be friends. Nope. Not now. He ruined everything. Things were supposed to be different but he just had to show up and yeah, things weren't supposed to be like this

[broody_manpire]

Why did she think I wanted to kill her? If I wanted to kill her I would have done it while I had her chained and in one spot, didn't she get that? I guess not considering she probably had Cheerios floating around in her brain by now. I just listened to her and watched her very carefully, she had a sway to her at times that made her even more Drusilla like. I learned early on to never take my eyes off my once upon a time dark Princess

[icouldfakeit]

Safe and alive? I watched him carefully but he was just telling more lies. Yep. I knew that. Lies like before, lies even more now. That's okay. I'm evil now, I lied all the time. Angel was evil too but Faith was too stupid to look hard enough. Just like William. But I was good anyways cause sometimes if you just go really still under them they think they hurt you and they get off really quick. Which like didn't happen anymore cause nothing can hurt me. Not really.

I hit him hard and then rolled away from him before getting up again. He made me lose my stake! Where was it? Stupid Angel! He made me lose my stake. That was probably his plan the whole time but that was okay cause I could kill him without a stake.

"It's not for her you know! Not everything is for her! It's not for me. It's them. They told me to kill you. I'd kill you anyways cause I don't like you very much but I have to now. Get it

[broody_manpire]

I wiped my bloody nose across my sleeve and just stared at her as she talked nonsense, she really was totally insane which didn't help matters. You can't reason with a crazy person, learned that a long time ago and much harder than what she was handing to me. She was frantically looking for her stake, she wasn't going to find it. I didn't understand what she was saying, who were they"Buffy, I didn't understand before. I didn't think about how she was yours first. I was selfish but it doesn't have to be like that anymore." I followed her slowly as she backed up, she tripped and went down hard. I moved up and offered her a hand up, which surprisingly she took. "See... I can be different if you help me understand. Tell me who they are, maybe I can help you sort things out

[icouldfakeit]

He's not different. I didn't know why he thought he could trick me. Maybe we could go and kill someone together and then I'd believe him but he wasn't going to do that. He couldn't be different. He was always the same. I just wanted him to shut his...stupid mouth! Shut up!

He's a liar."You're a liar! And...you wanna kill me." I shoved him hard which really I couldn't be too mad at him for wanting to kill me cause I wanted to kill him too. Like, alot

[broody_manpire]

She shoved me back calling me a liar when I was anything but, but she wasn't going to ever understand that. I could come for them and kill them both at any time and had I? No. Did I stop her from killing Faith and Wesley? Yes I did but still I didn't kill her, no one has tried to kill her as of yet. Didn't she get that? Probably not.

"I'll never kill her, just like I'll never kill you. I won't kill you unless you harm Faith... and like you said earlier she's more yours than mine. You care for her you don't want to kill her, someone is telling you to but you don't have to listen Buffy!" I tried pleading with her one last time as she started to back up again telling me I should leave. She'll kill me later.

"Buffy please listen to me, I want to help you." I said as honestly as I could, useless. "What things do you have to do? Things they tell you, who are they Buffy?" I was getting slightly frustrated with her.

[icouldfakeit]

I shook my head. He still didn't understand. Maybe it's cause of who I am or who I used to be and yeah. He didn't know. He couldn't hear the things that they had to say. Those were just for me. Well, I shared them with the others but really I didn't know who the others were anymore. Besides Faith. She didn't hear the voices the same way I did though. Except Angel wasn't dead so maybe she did.

"No. It's not that easy, Angel. You have to kill me, I'll kill them all if you don't. I'll kill everybody. William doesn't have plans, but I do. I don't like this place anymore, I want it to be different. I'll make it different."

He was right. I don't have to listen to the voices anymore. That was why I hated everything so much. Why it wasn't good enough. Cause I wouldn't listen. But I was gonna listen now, to my own voice. I'd make friends. I didn't need them.

"You're right. Thank you." I said as I slammed my fist hard into his face. He fell over and I ran real fast. Too fast for him to keep up with and I was gone.

You didn't kill him.