Hope you find yourself in a low place like home
William was all mad at me still. I didn't know why, he doesn't make alot of sense. Think he's still mad cause I didn't kill her. If he thought he could do better he should go kill her. Stupid....vampire. Thought he knew everything but he wasn't the only one that talked to me. Nope. Spike thought he was my only friend but he didn't know anything.
1, 2 already down.
The voice wasn't scary anymore. Not really because I'm way scarier than everything else. So I'm like not even afraid anymore. Not of the voice anyway, sometimes though I think it might go away. It can't. I mean it can't cause if it went away then I wouldn't have any friends. Besides William, but we weren't really friends. I don't think he likes me very much at all. I killed Dru. It's okay. Sometimes he cried when nobody watched, but I saw almost everything. You know, when I was there. I needed him. If he went away it would just be me again because I killed them all.
I killed them all.
"How many more to go?" I asked as I pulled on my favorite pants. The really pretty ones. I got them on sale at the mall but I don't really have to pay for anything anymore.
Three.
Two. Angel and Spike. They were the two left. Darla and Dru already down. I don't know why there were three now. Shouldn't be three.
"YOU'RE CHANGING EVERYTHING!" I yelled, twisting my fingers around long strands of blonde hair as I beat them against my face. "STOP IT!"
It got really quiet so I pulled my hands away from my face and looked around. Oh no. Did I make it mad? Mad like William was? I couldn't really kill them all. They were too strong and I wasn't strong at all. No. Not good enough. Not good enough for them. For her. Never good enough.
"COME BACK!" I yelled to the empty room. God, I hated this room. It was so stupid you know. Staying in this motel. We didn't need this room. Told William that but then he reminded me that I burned his crypt down so yeah. I guess he was mad at me about that too.
"Who's the third? Tell me why three? You want Angel and William, want their dust. That's two."
I knew the two. I could take Angel. I'd kill him. Yep. Just like she told me to do to William. I couldn't do William. He was too hard. I liked him the way he was but....I still hated him too. Maybe I could do Angel and Faith could do William and then we'd be together. I don't know. I'd kill Angel and figure out the rest later.
Shrugging I turned back around and opened up a drawer before pulling a Snickers bar out. Unwrapping the package I chewed on it loudly but it wasn't working. I was still hungry. Stupid thing. Angrily I threw it to the floor and thought about where I'd go tonight. Somewhere where I could find food.
You are.
I stopped in my tracks and looked around.
"I am?"
Angel. Spike. You. Kill them all.
"SHUT UP! YOU DON'T KNOW! You don't know anything!" Angrily I pushed all of the things on the table over to the ground. Made a big mess. William would be angry.
It wasn't me. I wasn't three. Kill them all. I knew why though, of course. I knew why it wanted me too. Because I wasn't right anymore. William saved me, made me all better but I'm not right. Nope. I pulled the stake out of my waistband and looked at it for a minute. I was a monster. That's what she said. I'm a monster now. That's why they wanted me. I was one of them.
If they wanted three monsters I'd give them. I'd find them. Has to be the special three though. We're a family. William. Angel. And Faith. I'd make her like me and then send three.
I could still slay vampires. I'm the vampire slayer.
Went out to hunt and found some food but it was never really better. I was still hungry alot and sometimes they wanted me to do stuff for them but I mostly just killed them. At least tonight cause I wasn't really in the mood for the slow kill. Not for them. The slow kill was special, you had to wait for the right time. The right person. Maybe I'd never be hungry again after that.
I saw a boy in her yard. A boy and a girl the way it was supposed to be except why were they here? I think I remembered them being friends with Faith except I never really paid attention to Faith's friends. Maybe I should start. Cause I liked him. He was nice. I was going to make him like me and then we could go kill Faith together but there were way too many of them.
He's not the one.
They were all fighting with eachother to keep him and I totally could have kept him if I wanted to, but I didn't really. When I looked at him again, Xander, he wasn't that impressive. No. Not for me. I liked William.
I guess the other girls thought so too because they all left and then Xander left and it was just me. Just me because when I looked in her window she wasn't there either. Out for the night. Out anywhere but looking for me. Why didn't she see me? I mean really see me. She should look harder.
I'd make her.
I felt something tug on my ankle and then suddenly I was falling off of the tree and falling down to the yard. Ouch. With a pout I glanced up and realized who had pulled me down.
"Oh good. I was looking for you." I said as I got back up to my feet and pulled my stake out. "I have to kill you now."
1, 2 already down.
The voice wasn't scary anymore. Not really because I'm way scarier than everything else. So I'm like not even afraid anymore. Not of the voice anyway, sometimes though I think it might go away. It can't. I mean it can't cause if it went away then I wouldn't have any friends. Besides William, but we weren't really friends. I don't think he likes me very much at all. I killed Dru. It's okay. Sometimes he cried when nobody watched, but I saw almost everything. You know, when I was there. I needed him. If he went away it would just be me again because I killed them all.
I killed them all.
"How many more to go?" I asked as I pulled on my favorite pants. The really pretty ones. I got them on sale at the mall but I don't really have to pay for anything anymore.
Three.
Two. Angel and Spike. They were the two left. Darla and Dru already down. I don't know why there were three now. Shouldn't be three.
"YOU'RE CHANGING EVERYTHING!" I yelled, twisting my fingers around long strands of blonde hair as I beat them against my face. "STOP IT!"
It got really quiet so I pulled my hands away from my face and looked around. Oh no. Did I make it mad? Mad like William was? I couldn't really kill them all. They were too strong and I wasn't strong at all. No. Not good enough. Not good enough for them. For her. Never good enough.
"COME BACK!" I yelled to the empty room. God, I hated this room. It was so stupid you know. Staying in this motel. We didn't need this room. Told William that but then he reminded me that I burned his crypt down so yeah. I guess he was mad at me about that too.
"Who's the third? Tell me why three? You want Angel and William, want their dust. That's two."
I knew the two. I could take Angel. I'd kill him. Yep. Just like she told me to do to William. I couldn't do William. He was too hard. I liked him the way he was but....I still hated him too. Maybe I could do Angel and Faith could do William and then we'd be together. I don't know. I'd kill Angel and figure out the rest later.
Shrugging I turned back around and opened up a drawer before pulling a Snickers bar out. Unwrapping the package I chewed on it loudly but it wasn't working. I was still hungry. Stupid thing. Angrily I threw it to the floor and thought about where I'd go tonight. Somewhere where I could find food.
You are.
I stopped in my tracks and looked around.
"I am?"
Angel. Spike. You. Kill them all.
"SHUT UP! YOU DON'T KNOW! You don't know anything!" Angrily I pushed all of the things on the table over to the ground. Made a big mess. William would be angry.
It wasn't me. I wasn't three. Kill them all. I knew why though, of course. I knew why it wanted me too. Because I wasn't right anymore. William saved me, made me all better but I'm not right. Nope. I pulled the stake out of my waistband and looked at it for a minute. I was a monster. That's what she said. I'm a monster now. That's why they wanted me. I was one of them.
If they wanted three monsters I'd give them. I'd find them. Has to be the special three though. We're a family. William. Angel. And Faith. I'd make her like me and then send three.
I could still slay vampires. I'm the vampire slayer.
Went out to hunt and found some food but it was never really better. I was still hungry alot and sometimes they wanted me to do stuff for them but I mostly just killed them. At least tonight cause I wasn't really in the mood for the slow kill. Not for them. The slow kill was special, you had to wait for the right time. The right person. Maybe I'd never be hungry again after that.
I saw a boy in her yard. A boy and a girl the way it was supposed to be except why were they here? I think I remembered them being friends with Faith except I never really paid attention to Faith's friends. Maybe I should start. Cause I liked him. He was nice. I was going to make him like me and then we could go kill Faith together but there were way too many of them.
He's not the one.
They were all fighting with eachother to keep him and I totally could have kept him if I wanted to, but I didn't really. When I looked at him again, Xander, he wasn't that impressive. No. Not for me. I liked William.
I guess the other girls thought so too because they all left and then Xander left and it was just me. Just me because when I looked in her window she wasn't there either. Out for the night. Out anywhere but looking for me. Why didn't she see me? I mean really see me. She should look harder.
I'd make her.
I felt something tug on my ankle and then suddenly I was falling off of the tree and falling down to the yard. Ouch. With a pout I glanced up and realized who had pulled me down.
"Oh good. I was looking for you." I said as I got back up to my feet and pulled my stake out. "I have to kill you now."