I dont know what to do. Im so lost. Ive been stressed, depressed, and have anxiety every freakin day. The one person you should be able to turn to wont even be there for me. I dont understand Travis. One month he makes me the happiest I have ever been. The next, I dont know why in the hell Im with him. He doesn't respect anything I say. All ( Read more... )

Travis and I are back to normal again. Im at his house everyday but we get along a lot better. Hes more understanding about me talking to my guy friends, more affectionate towards me..and Im more understanding about his smoking. I love him ( Read more... )

Ok Travis and I....long story. We never split up, we had a long talk and he aggreed he wouldnt smoke around me anymore. And he still doesnt. But we still argue...about what? The stupidest things. We are on a "break" right now. Im not going over to his house and we arent actually spending any time together, but we still talk on the phone every ( Read more... )

We're done and it sucks. I love him so much but I couldnt take his smoking anymore. :(

I dont know where this is even going. I want a guy that I can have a future with. Someone I can eventually marry and have a family with. I dont know if Travis can be that guy. Hes too much of a bachelor for anything like that. He says hes quitting smoking...but hes been smoking the past week. His friends all do it so its not like he has the ( Read more... )

I feel like crying but I cant anymore. I love Travis. But is he even into me anymore?? Im so in love but its like he doesnt pay any attention to me. Like hes sick of me or something. I hate this. :(

Last weekend was suppose to be Travis' last day smoking. I should have known. I guess I knew all along it wasnt going to happen, just hoped he would have quit. I dont even care if he quits. If he slowed down it would better. Thats the only thing in his life that makes him happy ( Read more... )

Travis just told me I act different towards him when we are in public. I dont see it. And I dont understand. He doesnt like being affectionate in public, so Im not. Even though when Im with him or see him I want to hug and kiss him every second. But hes not like that. So how am I suppose to be??? Ugh. Whatever. He doesnt act like hes ( Read more... )

And now I can start saving money. There arent anymore trips coming up to be spending on. I can start focusing on myself again ( Read more... )

Ive been depressed lately and it sucks. I ended up dropping my classes because it was going to be too early and long days for me. Since Ive been back from Vegas ive been so down. I had a great time there. Now that Im back its like I need to get my shit together. Im not happy with where I am in my life. I think Travis is afraid of committment ( Read more... )