Rollercoaster
I dont know what to do. Im so lost. Ive been stressed, depressed, and have anxiety every freakin day. The one person you should be able to turn to wont even be there for me. I dont understand Travis. One month he makes me the happiest I have ever been. The next, I dont know why in the hell Im with him. He doesn't respect anything I say. All he ever worries about is himself. If it doesnt benefit him then hes not doing it. Plain and simple. Drives me nuts. Im crazy about him, I do things for him all the time....he doesnt do a damn thing for me. He will smoke cigarettes when Im with him even though he knows it bothers me. He gets high in front of me EVERY HOUR. I thought he could be the one. Now Im questioning if Im even still in love with this guy. I want to be spoiled like I spoil him. I want people to know hes in love with me and not seeing him treat me like shit and them questioning why I am with him. I dont know why Im with him. Hes never going to change anything and who am I to even tell someone to change. Hes selfish, Im not. I need someone who can make me happy again.