dear cory...july 15, 2007
cory,
there is no good reason or excuse for tonight. i went to the hospital today because i wasn't breathing. i was in pain and shakey and it would have made me feel better to have seen you but you said you couldn't because you wanted to go to bed early because of paintballing, which honestly i understood. but then you decided you had enough time or energy to go out with mikie. i didn't like it and it hurt but i didn't get angry. you said you'd text me and that you weren't going to be out late, yet you called me at midnight and were just getting home. i do not understand how you can be out till midnight with a friend but not even stop by to see your GIRLFRIEND who went to the hospital that day. that is not right. it's not what you do when you care about someone, let alone love them. i wasn't asking you not to paintball in the morning or anything unreasonable, in fact all i wanted is what should have been what happened in the first place.
honestly today showed me just how much i really mean to you. i finally see that i'm not important enough for you to come back and see. yes, you left the beach when you heard i was sick and that does count for something, but you went out and chose to be out till midnight with mikie instead of seeing me and going home early. bottom line is i'm done feeling like and being treated like a second choice to everythink if your life. you say you're over everything and no one understands you and no one cares about you and how unhappy you are about everything and that nothing makes it better. how do you think that makes me feel? i've done everything in my power to make you happy and show you that i care and love you, but in the end i guess i'm just not enough for you to be happy with.
you are short with me and you only are cute or nice when you want to be. you have up on me like a two year old and get angry at me when you don't need to. when friends call and ask what you're doing you don't say you're with me, you take my picture off your phone and although you think i don't get it i know that you either deny or delete my comments for whatever reason. i may have my flaws but i have bent over backwards to do right by you and show you how much you mean to me.
in the end it comes down to this...i'm done being nice and getting shit on in return. it's time for you to do something big, something to show me you really do love me. words are just talk, actions mean more. because here it is...today your girlfriend was scared and went to the hospital because she couldn't breath, she came home and needed you to be there and to hold her and tell her it's okay, but chose to go out till midnight with mikie instead. and then when she told that hurt her you got mad and got off the phone. that's not right at all. i'm done cory. you need to show me that you want me in your life and that you are going to stop being mean and stop putting everyone and everything before me. because today you messed up. you messed up bigger than i can let go. so now it's up to you. show me you really love me, or don't. it's up to you.
i love you
whitney
there is no good reason or excuse for tonight. i went to the hospital today because i wasn't breathing. i was in pain and shakey and it would have made me feel better to have seen you but you said you couldn't because you wanted to go to bed early because of paintballing, which honestly i understood. but then you decided you had enough time or energy to go out with mikie. i didn't like it and it hurt but i didn't get angry. you said you'd text me and that you weren't going to be out late, yet you called me at midnight and were just getting home. i do not understand how you can be out till midnight with a friend but not even stop by to see your GIRLFRIEND who went to the hospital that day. that is not right. it's not what you do when you care about someone, let alone love them. i wasn't asking you not to paintball in the morning or anything unreasonable, in fact all i wanted is what should have been what happened in the first place.
honestly today showed me just how much i really mean to you. i finally see that i'm not important enough for you to come back and see. yes, you left the beach when you heard i was sick and that does count for something, but you went out and chose to be out till midnight with mikie instead of seeing me and going home early. bottom line is i'm done feeling like and being treated like a second choice to everythink if your life. you say you're over everything and no one understands you and no one cares about you and how unhappy you are about everything and that nothing makes it better. how do you think that makes me feel? i've done everything in my power to make you happy and show you that i care and love you, but in the end i guess i'm just not enough for you to be happy with.
you are short with me and you only are cute or nice when you want to be. you have up on me like a two year old and get angry at me when you don't need to. when friends call and ask what you're doing you don't say you're with me, you take my picture off your phone and although you think i don't get it i know that you either deny or delete my comments for whatever reason. i may have my flaws but i have bent over backwards to do right by you and show you how much you mean to me.
in the end it comes down to this...i'm done being nice and getting shit on in return. it's time for you to do something big, something to show me you really do love me. words are just talk, actions mean more. because here it is...today your girlfriend was scared and went to the hospital because she couldn't breath, she came home and needed you to be there and to hold her and tell her it's okay, but chose to go out till midnight with mikie instead. and then when she told that hurt her you got mad and got off the phone. that's not right at all. i'm done cory. you need to show me that you want me in your life and that you are going to stop being mean and stop putting everyone and everything before me. because today you messed up. you messed up bigger than i can let go. so now it's up to you. show me you really love me, or don't. it's up to you.
i love you
whitney