something you're not telling me...
so since me and cory have been together i've known from the beining that there was a Jessica issue they were together for 2 years but she like mind fucks him and treats him like crap and is just not mature or anything...like she's a nice enough person but she's HORRIBLE to him so like they broke up and like i knew that there was a jessica issue when me and cory started dating like i knew about it from the begining and he told me everything too...like i've been there when she's called him and they've faught and like he's gotten really upset or he's called me if she calls him and upsets him and he tells me everything...but like on my birthday like i don't know why but he jsut hid it from me and i didn't like it like he KNOWS i'm never going to tell him "don't talk to her" or be a bitch about it cuz i understand that he'll always care about her and i don't expect him just to suddenlly NOT love her anymore i know it doesn't work like that (like honestly as much as i hate senior psycho pants, i know i couldn't hate him this much without still caring about him on some level dispite everything he did to me) but like i still don't like the fact that he didn't tell me she text him and i'm not sure if he texts her first or what cuz his phone doesn't save his send messages for some reason and i know he's not deleteing them cuz i've text off his phone and they dont show up even when i text from it...but like i read over his shoulder without him noticing and the messaged ended with "i love you" and like i don't expect him NOT to love her but i just wish i didn't have to see it...like he tells me all the time "'i don't want you to think that i'm going and texting or calling jess all the time cuz i'm not" i know they talk and that she texts him and he'll answer but like i don't know...i think that just that day irritated me...but he lets me play with his phone and go through all his texts and his recent calls and everything he's like "look at everything. i have nothing to hide from you" i just wish that he would change his myspace...like he still has a photobucet slideshow of them on there and he still has her pics on his thing and he still has her as number one but like he told me he's like "i forget that i have to change it when i'm on i just go and check my messages and then like that's it" i don't know...eventually i'll get mad at him and make him change it but for now i don't really look at it so i'm fine...but then again like last night jess kept calling and texting him cuz she was in havasu for the weekend but she called and text him the whole time and like i saw a message from her that was like "i'm coming home tomorrow and i love you and i miss you" and like i saw him text a message "okay i love you" like honestly i just want him to be happy. and if that means that he wants her then GO. but i don't like this whole idea of him NOT TELLING ME SOMETHING like i jsut keep feeling like he's hiding something from me and i just wish he wouldn't. if he's not sure he wants to be with me then tell me and if he's not sure if he wants to get back with jess then tell me but don't keep texting her and calling her behind my back, cuz it just hurts. like i saw it in the theaters when we were watching pairets last night and i literally felt my heart hurt. he asked what was wrong and i said nothing cuz i don't want to bring it up yet, but like right now we just talked and he said "hey babe i'm going out to dinner with kevin and i'm almost to his house so can i call you when we're done?" i was like "yeah have fun and tell kevin i say hi" but honestly i think he's going to dinner with jessica. i really think that he's lying to me and that he's trying to work things out with her and get back together and it kills me cuz he sits there and tells me "i love you" and that he's so happy with me and that he loves everything about me but yet he can't NOT talk to jess. i don't understand...it just hurts to feel like i'm second best or her replacement...