:( i looooooooooooooove the rain... but i'm finding out that i get wicked depressed when it rains. like i just feel like lying in bed staring at the ceiling all day. so, if i seem weird or depressed today (or any other day that it rains) just know that its the rain and that i'm not having any problems..

hmmmm. i want to fucking die.

this is scary. for the first time in my life, i've seriously wanted to take my life. i'm not trying to be emo or call attention to myself, but i thought you guys should know. i've always wanted to die, i never wanted to live. no one ever really cared about me except maybe family, and now that i have at least four, probably more, people that not ( Read more... )

so doing work and getting ready for finals really sucks ass. i mean, not only am i wicked stressed out about the whole Angela thing, but theres the Kim and Rob thing, and stuff, but now i need to study and do stuff for finals. *sigh* thank God i'm not having problems with friends at home or with Mike. espescially Mike. i love him and we're doing ( Read more... )

i hate being alive. its killing me and i'd rather die quickly and painlessly than slow and dragged out. ugh. so maybe i can think of a way to kill myself without actually committing suicide. "trip" in front of a fast bus/train/truck/car? maybe someone can do it for me without my knowledge? i dunno.

ELPHABA ( Read more... )

Kim and i are agreeing on something. we both don't want to room together anymore. we might be switching with this other room. blah blah blah.. don't feel like explaining everything ( Read more... )

i feel really helpless. i'm not in control of my life. everyone else controls it. they control what happens, where i go, what i do, how i feel.. everything. then when i am finally given the opportunity to make a choice, i can't. i need someone to do it for me. when i go to a friends house, they ask "what do you want to do?" i can't give them an ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking bored omg ( Read more... )

ok, so today i got hit on by a 7th grader through myspace. he wanted to spank me.... weird and rude people on myspace. i have this picture that is so not me, its the corset picture i have on here and like every guy thinks thats me and they're all like "i hope thats your ass. i'd like to get on that ass." stuff like that. one guy...sent me a pic of ( Read more... )