All I needed was a couple of years of anger and sadness for me to see through the bad and remember why I loved you.

I had the most amazing dream last week ( Read more... )

Let me just say that some of the cheesiest things are the best. ie. getting a note on your car telling you are in citation of "being too beautiful". I am all floaty.

This was not my fault. Fighting with a memory of what used to be. I did not want to lose but there is just no winning. She has a hold of his heart filling it up and refusing to let anyone else in. So he shuts love out. He thinks he had the best but he gave it up. Regret. He has become an emotional cripple. He hopes that one day she will ( Read more... )

What am I doing? I don't know if I can handle living in such uncertainty. I am happy but there is always a bit of me is wondering when he is going to get sick of me, or when I am going to do something to freak him out and make him run. Oh well. We will just see how much of this I can stand. I just need to keep telling myself that I am worth ( Read more... )

I don't like how this feels. Hearing what he is saying: him and her without me. Where do I fit in? When will it be my turn to be pushed out? I am lying here trying not to look at him. The ceiling distracts my mind, I am trying to make shapes, faces and trees, out of the grooves and dips of the paint. A tear breaks free, it rolls down my face as ( Read more... )

So I went home to have dinner with my parents because I really need them right now. I got see see the symonds and miriam came over to watch the OC and then Ruben came over and we sat around and watched Jurassic Park. My mom went to bed and Ruben ordered a Pizza. We just sat around and laughed and hung out. It felt so good to be home with my ( Read more... )

I had an amazing Christmas dispite some unfortunate events. Made me realize that in the end I will always have my family. Friends are sometimes as good as family, but only when the love is unconditional like with Miriam and Tiffany, but other than that my family will be the people holding me up when I need the help. They will love me no matter ( Read more... )

I don't want to smile at your pain, but it creeps upon my face. I dont want to laugh at your sorrow, but you brought it upon yourself. If you sit and wonder how you got to where you are. the place of tears and lonely music. the place where there is no one to hold you and tell you that you were right. Look at your actions in the past. Look ( Read more... )

I am in love with love... lets just say that my break was amazing