he tells me I look scary

. . . when he's the one that looks as though he just finished sticking his finger into an electric outlet for the 30th time.

gotta get out of here . . . soon.

I hate him.

fuck . . . no, I don't HATE him. But dammit I want to hurt him.
fuck . . . no, I don't wnat to hurt him.
I want to not feel.
sometimes I think maybe if I let everyone in . . . it wouldn't hurt so badly when the select few that are already in . . . want to get out.

i'm going to kill supansa.

she doesn't ask for much of anything.she doesn't ask to be taken out.she doesn't ask to be loved.she doesn't ask for you to fall in love with her.nor does she ask for you to forget the beautiful long legged blonds of the world.she doesn't ask for flowers.she doesn't ask for gifts. she doesn't ask to have her hands held.she doesn't need to be told ( Read more... )

there shouldn't be anything to think about.
the way I see it . . .
you want to be with me
or you don't.
it's that simple.
don't be afraid to say that you don't want to be with me because you don't want to be alone.
I deserve more respect than that.
I deserve more than that.
I deserve more than you.

. . . a house where it's a common occurance for homeless men to be found sleeping on our living room floor. A house where you see a man count his pennies for the next 40oz before his morning shift at an under the table job ( Read more... )

. . . I went into Church today. The 12:15 mass was posted as I was riding by on my bike at 12:13. I haven't been in 9 years. I was surprised to see how many people were there . . . and also surprised that I was the youngest one there by at least 25 years ( Read more... )

I lay awake at night thinking of you, looking at the phone. . . as if just looking at it will make it ring. I hope it makes you happy. I think about when the exact moment hit. . . the moment you knew you didn't want me. It pisses me off, nope. . .can't put it any more eloquently than that. . . it pisses me off that you lead me to the cliff and ( Read more... )

I'm sick of people, so called friends....I don't want anyone to know me, because they doubt me, only after I've let them in and showed them the bare essentials of my soul. I don't have the energy to redeem myself of these accusations, I don't think I give a fuck what anyone thinks right now. I know myself and I don't think I want you knowing me, ( Read more... )