I think today is my last day with Sami. That makes me so unbelievably depressed. How am I going to survive in Davis without getting to play with her? I've been her only babysitter for over a year now, and she's my favorite kid ever. Nobody else is going to understand her like I do. No one else is going to be able to sing all her favorite songs ( Read more... )

It's amazing how much better being in Sunnyvale makes me feel. The drive home seems shorter, the air smells better, I even enjoy being around my family and the three crazy cats. What I DON'T enjoy is unpacking. That's what I spent most of today doing. I unloaded my entire car, though, which was PACKED with stuff ( Read more... )

Work began 15 minutes ago.

Where am I?

Steven's house.

It's okay. Nobody cares anyway. Nobody up there at least.

I went to Reno with Steven for his brother's wedding. It was pretty fun. I mastered the art of penny slots, blackjack, and kaluha with cream. The wedding was nice. Reception had good food. I made a necklace out of the cheap wedding rings on the table. I finally got to slow dance with Steven, something I've never had the oppurtunity to do. ( Read more... )

Why isn't there a magic pill that can make everything all better ( Read more... )

I seriously need to have nothing to do for a while. Yes, school ends on Wednesday, but I start work on Thursday so that's not going to be very easy. I'm so far behind (STILL) that I just don't know what to do ( Read more... )

Isn't it weird how you can just be going along your daily life and then something happens and makes you re-evaluate everything?

One of the band-uh drummers died yesterday. Angelina, I didn't know you well, but you'll be missed.

I feel really weird now.

I accidentally slept through all my classes plus a harpsichord lesson. I was so ( Read more... )

I suck at harpsichord. The recital is May 31st, and I'm not sure whether or not I'm in it, but either way I'm nervous. If I'm in it, everyone's going to laugh at me when they see how poorly I play. It's not that I'm bad at harpsichord exactly... I mean, I would be wonderful if I'd started playing keyboards like, last year or something. But ( Read more... )

So I'm not having very much fun this weekend. First of all, while my allergies are better, they're not completely gone. The free wireless internet thing they installed on the lamp outside Carrie's house is stupid because the internet has annoying ads EVERYWHERE (if I didn't have Firefox/adblock, I'd REALLY go crazy), and for some reason my ( Read more... )

My favorite pair of capris, which I bought not even a year ago (July; I wore them for the first time to see EXTRAordinary) are way too small. I can barely squeeze into them. I haven't been this depressed in a long time.

Just thought you'd all like to know, even though you probably don't.