i want it to be messy. i want it to be confusing. i want to get angry. i want to not feel bad about being angry. about telling you that i am angry. i want to be able to have an argument, a fight and know that you are strong enough and i am strong enough and we will come out of it with tears and laughter and will kiss until our pride has burned down ( Read more... )

you know those friends who always listen to you? around whom you start to talk and then just find everything spilling out, even the messy things because you know they won't judge you? and when they listen to you, their eyes are always filled with love and acceptance and just a little bit of amusement? i had a long dinner with a friend like that ( Read more... )

today i cleaned the kitchen and cleaned off my desk and put away all my clothes and listened to feist and relient k. i bought a lot of delicious produce (eggplant and yellow squash, green beans and the reddest tomatoes) and even some ginger and white baking chocolate for new recipes that i want to try. i balanced my checkbook and took a really long ( Read more... )

so i am still very early in the job but sometimes, when i am there, i feel like my heart could explode. i feel so lucky because i just love it SO MUCH. i love that i get to focus on the child and their heart. i get to focus on the social and emotional aspects of who they are. it is my job to see the best in them, to sing their praises. i like that ( Read more... )

my grandpa is probably my number one hero. he is ornery and hilarious and patient and strong and he can fix pretty much anything in the world. and yesterday he had a colonoscopy and they found four polyps. and i have been shrugging it off because that just means the procedure was a good idea right? that they found everything and can clean him up ( Read more... )

t. gave me advice about distracting oneself from unwanted thoughts:
Alternatively, you could try another track for distracting yourself from those pesky thoughts - embarrassment. While you may be thinking to yourself: "I don't get embarrassed, so how is this supposed to work?" Well my friend, you are wrong. You can be embarrassed. All you have ( Read more... )

in my lifetime i want to ( Read more... )

i have oh-so-fabulous-in-every-single-way supportive, generous and loving-heart friends.

last night, t. and i went tango dancing. we swivled and twirled and laughed and he is such a patient teacher. it reminded me of when he taught me to drive stick shift and jan was in the back making fun and t. just kept saying "you're doing great! that happens to every one. you learn really fast!" and i drank one very full glass of very delicious ( Read more... )

my mom will be home from the hospital today! all drugged up and ready to be carried up and down the stairs on a kitchen chair throne. here's to hoping it was worth it and they can finally figure out what's wrong! i really want her to be able to go to paris. LIKE FOR REALZ ( Read more... )