I spend most of my days indoors at home.  I'm usually very tired and have pain in my legs, back, and ribs.  I'm no longer receiving any chemo or other medical treatment for cancer.  If I had money, I'd go to the Cancer Treatment of America to look for possible other treatments.  When I signed the Do Not Resuscitate form, my oncologist was smiling ( Read more... )

I was told today by my oncologist that my calcium levels are rising too high and that means I will die by the month of May of this year. Then she (my oncologist), along with a nurse and an oncologist social worker, proceeded to pressure me into signing a Do Not Resuscitate order right then and there in the office. I refused. I ended up taking a ( Read more... )

I've had a rough two weeks.  I was in a lot of pain -- back pain, lower stomach pain -- and incredibly weak.  I still have the weakness and my oncologist has me on yet another round of chemotherapy.  I'm so tired and I must wait on my mother sometimes hand and foot.  I just want to be free.  I'm being stalked as much or more than ever.  It's ( Read more... )

My oncologist says that my chemotherapy is working.  My liver tumors are either smaller or they've disappeared altogether ( Read more... )

I had blood drawn last Tuesday so that my cancer antigen number could be assessed.  The number had been steadily climbing for months and it was alarming, to say the least.  The higher the number, the more "cancer antigens" are present in the blood, so it means that my cancer was increasing all that time.  Just today I looked at my most recent test ( Read more... )

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My cancer antigen numbers are up for the second time in a row.  The tamoxifen is no longer working, according to my oncologist.  I had a CT scan a few days ago and it shows that the cancer has moved into my bones.  My big worry is that my 93-year-old mother will live longer than I will.  There's no one but me to take care of her.  Her other ( Read more... )

My recent blood work shows that my cancer antigen numbers have increased a lot in the past few months. Because of this, my doctor prescribed Tamoxifen for me. I started taking it on Tuesday. After the third dose on Friday, I was hurting a lot in the area of my liver ( Read more... )

My brother sold our late father's property several months ago. The profits from the sale and any money left in my Dad's savings were supposed to be divided between my brother, my sister and me. Instead, my brother and sister have shared the money between themselves and I have been totally excluded ( Read more... )

Today is the one year anniversary of my double mastectomy. At this time exactly one year ago, I was lying in a hospital bed with my chest wrapped in bandages. It was raining steadily outside my window. I was just glad that the operation was all over.