Sometimes I start to think no matter what I do, I can't be happy and then.... I don't know. I'm waiting for the "and then..." that will make me feel like I did, riding down Bethany Road in Brandon's car, listening to "Change Your Mind" on the radio, dancing and not even realizing how bad it looked. The truth is, I guess, we don't know what's going ( Read more... )

I am going home.

Things I Hate About College/York:

-Thin dorm walls: Wondering why the hell there are girls giggling when I know my friends didn't sleep over, then realizing something must be funny in the room down the hall. Having to play Josh Joplin torturously quietly so as not to feel guilty about bothering others. Waking up to "Are you ready kids?" "Aye aye ( Read more... )

Dear Zen ( Read more... )

And you know what that means. No, you don't. Cause you, Livejournal, are not a York student ( Read more... )

Everything feels kind of restricting and prisonish tonight. The roommate, the one room to live in, the public bathroom, the three-hour classes, the not knowing anyone, the infatuation with the worst possible significant other, the wearing headphones when all I want to do is blare this fucking song and scream ( Read more... )

Um, I'd just like to tell the world, in case you hadn't thought about it before, 50,000 students is a fuckload of people. They will form lines at food places that were formerly there to serve only you. They will smoke in your face. They will scare you shitless ( Read more... )

Well I'm here. That's good. I whined like hell at the airport, but Dad made me get on the plane. I normally don't have daddy detachment problems, but when he said goodbye to me it took every "I AM CARRIE-ANN MOSS" chant in me to keep from letting everyone see the tears sliding down my face ( Read more... )

We said goodbye and I looked at you and I kept thinking about all the things I'm going to have to do alone. Tomorrow I'm on my own again. Tomorrow you aren't mine ( Read more... )

My mouth is dry. Because it has been hanging open ever since Victoria and I left this morning. Wow ( Read more... )