Everybody’s got a blank page ( Read more... )

And so it continues.

Life has carried on as it does,

Since I made my last attempt at becoming a blogger again.

My sweet girl started Kindergarten this year.

I don’t even know where to begin with this.

She is and has always been and will always be my miracle baby.

She struggles in school. She has a learning delay.

Don’t get me wrong- she’s brilliant. She’s ( Read more... )

i'm not sure if i could describe how i feel right now that i would ( Read more... )

i had given up on the livejournal community.
thought i'd give myspace blog a whirl.
however, now that i feel no one checks this journal any longer
i thought i'd come back to this world.
while i know technically anyone who wants to read this can,
i feel i have been more personal and real here than anywhere else.

it's been quite a while.
i won't bore you, ( Read more... )

wow. april was the last time i wrote ( Read more... )

wow. that's all i've got.

saturday night was scary.
i tried to lay down on the couch, on my side,
to watch tv.
i felt this sharp,sharp pain in my side so i sat up.
it went away.
repeat a couple of times.
i decide to sit up and watch tv.
but suddenly, i felt pain like i had never felt before.
i thought i was gonna throw up, it hurt so bad.
i ran to the bedroom, where daniel was doing ( Read more... )

the two weeks that have passed since my last post
have been both the best and worst weeks
i can ever remember having.

tuesday
last week
i thought i was gonna find out if i was having a boy or a girl.
turns out, they just drew blood
to run some tests
to check the baby for down syndrome
trisomy 18
and spina bifida.
its routine.
monday i get a phone call
saying ( Read more... )

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i
can't
stand 
it.

i miss him. ='[

gah.
daniel's in guatemala.
and im going alskjdflkjsdlkfjslkdjf.
insane.
i miss him so much.
i was supposed to be there too.
but doctors wouldn't let me.
because they were afraid if anything happened
the hospitals there are
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eh, so yeah. he's there. im here.

i'm showing.
i have one pair of pants that fit.
they used to be too big on me.
when i go to ( Read more... )