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gah.
daniel's in guatemala.
and im going alskjdflkjsdlkfjslkdjf.
insane.
i miss him so much.
i was supposed to be there too.
but doctors wouldn't let me.
because they were afraid if anything happened
the hospitals there are
lskjdlskjdf.
eh, so yeah. he's there. im here.
i'm showing.
i have one pair of pants that fit.
they used to be too big on me.
when i go to school and church
and i wear dress pants
i have one pair that KINDA fits
but i have to leave it unbuttoned.
i love being pregnant.
it makes me happy
when everything else makes me wanna be sad.
sometimes i hear something
a certain family members says to someone else
about how my baby is gonna have all these things wrong with it
and i know she does it out of concern
to prepare herself and others.
but it hurts my heart.
i just wish she knew what God could do.
that doesnt mean He will in this particular instance
but if He decides not to, it's still okay.
this baby is a miracle no matter what.
it is so incredibly loved
if by no one else, then by me.
i know daniel loves it.
but its hard for me to imagine anyone loving it
more than i do.
it is inside me
a part of me..
when i get up 984795837 times to pee a night
i know that it's because of the baby.
i just absolutely adore it =D
anyways, im hungry.
see ya.
daniel's in guatemala.
and im going alskjdflkjsdlkfjslkdjf.
insane.
i miss him so much.
i was supposed to be there too.
but doctors wouldn't let me.
because they were afraid if anything happened
the hospitals there are
lskjdlskjdf.
eh, so yeah. he's there. im here.
i'm showing.
i have one pair of pants that fit.
they used to be too big on me.
when i go to school and church
and i wear dress pants
i have one pair that KINDA fits
but i have to leave it unbuttoned.
i love being pregnant.
it makes me happy
when everything else makes me wanna be sad.
sometimes i hear something
a certain family members says to someone else
about how my baby is gonna have all these things wrong with it
and i know she does it out of concern
to prepare herself and others.
but it hurts my heart.
i just wish she knew what God could do.
that doesnt mean He will in this particular instance
but if He decides not to, it's still okay.
this baby is a miracle no matter what.
it is so incredibly loved
if by no one else, then by me.
i know daniel loves it.
but its hard for me to imagine anyone loving it
more than i do.
it is inside me
a part of me..
when i get up 984795837 times to pee a night
i know that it's because of the baby.
i just absolutely adore it =D
anyways, im hungry.
see ya.