following suit with another friend i met through livejournal, i'm giving this one up.for the most part, its all not that important to me anymore if everyone reads this thing. i like letting people know how i'm doing, and what all is going on in my life. i appreciate hearing from you guys as well. but theres people who read this i dont want reading ( Read more... )

this time i'm for fucking real, i'm never doing drugs again. everytime i fuck around with drugs, i lose someone else i care about, and now i lost someone whos like a sister to me, and now i feel like shit, cause i just wish my judgement were in better condition. i wouldve never let this happen. i knew i shouldnt have let this happen, i've kept it ( Read more... )

i've decided to kill everyone, cause everyone deserves to die. end of story.

2 weeks i guess till i start workin full time. i'm kinda nervous about it. the more i hear the job sucks, the more it worries me. i like the fact that its tons better than l&l, but i'm sitting in a cubicle all fucking day. i like the fact that i'm getting paid nearly twice as much, and its a ton more security then i have now, but i'm still nervous ( Read more... )

ignore that last post, no one was supposed to read it. yeah, erase it out of your memory, forever.

ok, so i'm still pissed. today i'm pissed off for different reasons though. i was leaving work after changing into a pair of jeans and a shirt, and as i was leaving, some baggers laughed at me cause of what i was wearing. i hate them. one of them wants to shave me head cause my hair is blue. my question is why the fuck do you care? courtneys a ( Read more... )

i'm fucking pissed again, but when am i not. i want fucking happiness, and its out of my fucking reach as usual. why the fuck cant i be happy? sometimes i'd feel happier if i never fucked my life up in the first place, if i had never made the wrong moves and done the wrong things. i wish i could take back what i did, and make things better. but i ( Read more... )

i'm bored, bought to go out to see the chronicals of riddick soon with lindsay ( Read more... )

and my new icon is fucking sweet. i made it. thats right. me. woo hoo! go me!

so a long night, and of course, my mom feels the need to wake me up in the morning. the deadline for me moing out gets closer, as i hope to hear back from corecomm. i realize that its shitty work, but at this point, its my las hope for staying out he. i i dont get the job, i have 2 options. 1) stay out here living with my mom in a going nowhere job ( Read more... )