what the fuck mood do you think i'm in?
i'm fucking pissed again, but when am i not. i want fucking happiness, and its out of my fucking reach as usual. why the fuck cant i be happy? sometimes i'd feel happier if i never fucked my life up in the first place, if i had never made the wrong moves and done the wrong things. i wish i could take back what i did, and make things better. but i cant fucking do that. fuck fuck fuck. i try to fucking turn my life around, and the same fucking obstacle comes back to fuck it all up again. i'm pissed off, and i'm never going to get over this until i just make it go away. and i dont know how the fuck i can just say "go away." i never fucking could, how can i now? i wish i could say fuck it all and move on to better brighter things, cause i know my future isnt here. but i cant, i have this force on me, and it kills me to be away from it.