so goes another day. may sleep take me, hope find me, and dreams lead me to a better tomorrow

gotta love those days when after all your hard work and running in a hectic pace, you're rewarded with a 19 yr old patient peeing on you cause he didn't bother to ask his 24 hr attendant to help him with the urinal and couldn't quite hold it in...

sometimes the best and only thing you can do is be yourself. Know who you are, stand strong and not let anyone change that. and remember, not everything is going to go as planned or the way you want. Life's not going to drop everything you want onto your lap. You have to reach out and try, and sometimes you get it, sometimes you'll miss. But it's ( Read more... )

I wish I could say there were many interesting and exciting new things in my life, but I'm sorry to report, that my life is boring. Surprise, surprise haha I am now officially off orientation, which means, I don't have a preceptor looking over my shoulder and making sure I'm doing things correctly and safely. It's kind of scary to not have that ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about updating and writing more, but i keep getting lazy and push it off. I need that cathartic feeling when i write and to let my thoughts flow free. Sometimes I feel like my thoughts are racing and my mind is firing off left and right and nothing coherent is filtering through. Perhaps writing more will help that problem ( Read more... )

finally passed that damn stupid motha of a crappy bullshit waste of time test. oh god, now i have to have some real responsibility now. i cant just hand off a problem anymore haha :p

i hate this test, it makes me feel so stupid. it's not that i cant grasp the material, it appears that i am having trouble thinking the way that the test people do. and although that might not necessarily be a bad thing, it does however affect my chances of passing the exam and actually being able to practice. i'm so frustrated with the test that i ( Read more... )

It's funny how when the bad things start coming, they come down hard. This past week has been terrible. So after 2 weeks of dragging myself through 8 hour nursing orientation classes, I had one day off before I started on the floor. And guess what I got in the mail. I got a letter saying I didnt pass my fucking licensing exam. I get to be the first ( Read more... )

Last week I went to Erin's MFA orientation because I didn't have anything to do and she offered to buy me lunch, so why not go? I could pretend to be an artsy fartsy person and shmooze. Thankfully we didnt bother talk to anyone and no one seemed interested in talking to us. That and we were surrounded by 18 year olds who are off to college and out ( Read more... )

It's kind of weird to be back home. It's kind of scary to know that I'll be in San Francisco for more than a week or two, that I'm settled here (for now) for the next few years. I got used to being a drifter, and making permanent plans to settle down, to start my life anew in SF makes me feel a bit uneasy. It's probably rooted in the idea of having ( Read more... )