For some reason I didn't imagine that I'd be waking up at 4 am for the third night in a row, checking my cell phone desperately, physically aching. I had forgotten the reality of romantic relations. Feelings change. I can't control someone else's feelings and should never strive to ( Read more... )

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So within the last month I lied to this guy I've been doing PA stuff for. We'll call him Peter Pan because I was very suspicious for a while that he's actually the real life 50-something Peter Pan guy. Anyway, I lied to him and told him that I had sent off his fallen-apart bag to the luggage repair store when in fact, I hadn't. I then continued ( Read more... )

I went to a word/food potluck at the beach on Saturday and someone read out of the Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. And I thought I'd share the selection with you. Because ( Read more... )

So I think I'm about to become a person who drinks coffee. And soon after I foresee myself achieving the status of coffee drinker. It's not that I want to, I just recognize that I'm highly affected by environmental influences and it's time to accept that I don't detest the taste of coffee anymore. I had a caffeinated beverage today, and it was ( Read more... )

I said I would leave a half hour ago. But I caught up reading about Drew Barrymore. And then I spent a good twenty minutes excavating my drawer in my mom's bathroom. And now I'm here, on, or in the internet ( Read more... )

how to start ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning from a dream wherein I was about to die and I needed to be "put down." The procedure was set to occur in an unknown living room on a rolly office chair and I was to be hung by my mom. There were odd objects related to the procedure carefully placed around the chair: a bowl, some shiny saran wrap, a sarong. My Mom seemed to ( Read more... )

I tried to go to sleep earlier and I couldn't.

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Hour 1 ( Read more... )