Well, since the last entry, a lot of things have happened ( Read more... )

I'm greedy

I'm greedy in a sense that I don't want what you have, I want to have had it first. I hate wanting things. I hate trying things that other people have already accomplished. I hate being outdone, defeated, succeeded and figuratively pwned. I want to better than someone at something. I want to have that feeling that someone looked up to ( Read more... )

The title is a little blunt but it's not without it's realities. In this self made book that I've called my life's blog, I've realized that everything I've attempted, I've failed in.

After acknowledgment of this, I have accepted it and pledge to just roll with the punches until I die from it.

In the midst of this, a lot of my failures weren't my ( Read more... )

So I'm realizing now that the apartment I want that's up in Manhattan is gradually increasing in price...I could have sworn the first time I saw it, it was only $800. I really don't want to get a studio apartment because there's a good chance my potential roommate (if things go well) will get a dog. The big problem is that I can't back down out of ( Read more... )

As I look back at most of the stuff that's happened, I can honestly say I have suffered for 14 years now. I've gotten my second camera stolen from me, lost friends, came back to this little dirt clump of a state after confrontations with my roommate and to top it all off, I'm still in school. But with the positives, I can say that I have had big ( Read more... )

A good song that kinda speaks from my point of view about the relationship with my mom anyway...

I will not leave a letter nothing at all
I'm sure you won't notice that I'm even gone
I wont break this silence we've shared for so long
I will be strong

this portion right here kinda sums it up, she rather listen to stuff that tickles her fancy ( Read more... )