Already Gone by Crossfade
A good song that kinda speaks from my point of view about the relationship with my mom anyway...
I will not leave a letter nothing at all
I'm sure you won't notice that I'm even gone
I wont break this silence we've shared for so long
I will be strong
this portion right here kinda sums it up, she rather listen to stuff that tickles her fancy since she supposedly never hear what I say. She doesn't want to ever hear my side of anyting because it's the supposed "same thing over and over again" when she's blatantly told me in the past that she doesn't want to hear anything I ever want to say, hence why she never wants me to teach her how to use the internet browser. She practically hates me to a specific degree, I'm not sweating it though since I'm leaving all the hate behind.
What happened was, I wanted her to read an editorial I was trying to make on the society here since most of the people I see are morons and imbeciles, I decided to maybe write something to somewhat make them want to better themselves. My mom, however, didn't actually care much for the idea and rather than reading the editorial, she blatantly ignored it and told me that she didn't really care much about what I had to say since she "heard it all before". So just hours ago, I told her three words I never thought I could ever tell my own mother...It sucks because she really tries her hardest to make it seem like she's doing something right because she doesn't want anyone telling her she's wrong. I had it, she may not care now but I told her I hated her, she don't care because she's a big mouth mean ass southern black woman but down the line she's going to wish that she's treated me a bit better...if anything, When I leave this time, I don't have school holding me back, I won't have money issues holding me down, the only thing that'll I'll eventually have to start worrying about is "how will I make it to the next bus".