Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
today my boss was fired. i found out about it yesterday but it didn't make it any less shocking and has left me feeling very exposed.
i've been with my company since february 2005. i started at the front desk as the receptionist when the company had ~35 employees. i was promoted less then a year later to office supervisor as a direct result of my boss pushing me in that direction.
a year ago in april we merged with another company. we now have nearly 100 employees in 5 offices in 3 states. i am the only one in the company who directly supervises as many people as i do - 8 (all female). i'm overworked and underpaid but i dealt with it because i enjoyed the people i worked with and i felt valued and fulfilled. lately however i am feeling like i cannot do anything well. i have no time to manage or train, i have no time to complete the HR projects i'm working on and i have no time to complete the special billable projects i'm given. i'm burnt out. i hate not feeling effective. I rely on my employees to cross train each other, this is how i was trained. infact my direct supervisor when i was hired didn't even know how to do my job. the problem is there are so many personality conflicts going on that i feel that it falls on me to do 100% of the training.
on top of all that, the politics of who is in whose pocket and who has whose back is probably the most draining aspect of all of this. its amazing to me the amount of asskissing people will do. i suppose it's pride but i prefer to think of it as maintaining my dignity to not participate in that. as a result there are people who don't care for me.
i'm ranting and whining. i could go on for hours, literally.
i updated my resume and revised my info on careerbuilder.com and jobing.com.
i hope this isn't a case of the grass is greener on the other side but i really feel pushed to my limits.
the president of my company just stopped by my office for a chat and said that today was hard and probably hardest on me. he said that if i wanted to talk his door was open. he really is a great guy, perhaps i will better formulate what i'm thinking and feeling and give him a chance to turn things around.
i heard it was snowing today in flagstaff! it sprinkled on me a bit this morning when i was driving to work. i love gloomy rainy days, it makes me want to cuddle up under a blanket, have a bowl of soup and watch a movie or read a book.
my dad is going car shopping with me on saturday. i'm supposed to e-mail him links to the cars i am interested in before we go.
audi - a3 (only i don't really like the color):
http://buzzlot.com/LesueurCarCompany/brochure.asp?referer=http://www.usedvwaudi.com/ou/tempe-auto/&s_account=bzres2792,bzresglobal&contentid=Lesueur-U&search_contentid=_default_search_id&compare=WAUMF78P36A011469&detSend=n&lang=US&startLang=&vin=WAUMF78P36A011469&locationid=2733&dealerid=812
vw - gti
http://buzzlot.com/LesueurCarCompany/brochure.asp?referer=http://www.usedvwaudi.com/ou/tempe-auto/&s_account=bzres2792,bzresglobal&contentid=Lesueur-U&search_contentid=_default_search_id&compare=WVWFV71K57W046371&detSend=n&lang=US&startLang=&vin=WVWFV71K57W046371&locationid=2733&dealerid=812
bmw - mini
http://buzzlot.com/LesueurCarCompany/brochure.asp?referer=http://www.usedvwaudi.com/ou/tempe-auto/&s_account=bzres2792,bzresglobal&contentid=Lesueur-U&search_contentid=_default_search_id&compare=WMWRE33575TL13051&detSend=n&lang=US&startLang=&vin=WMWRE33575TL13051&locationid=2733&dealerid=812