I want to know that things are different now for me.  The medicine is tricky in that it doesn't hit you all at once.  Baby steps and the slow evolution of self-realization and control are the slow markers of a changing person.  Its been 3 months now and I feel different.  "Death by a thousand small cuts. . . " or in this case "life".  This gift has ( Read more... )

I have come across one of my old journals from 10 years back.  One would hope to come a long way in one's internal development in 10 years.  I must warn you that what is behind the cut is my true self. . . well my true self 10 years ago anyway.  Don't judge me.
( Feb 27, 1998 )

happiness can not take your place
in my heart in my mind
i wait for you
i long for you

we have so much
yet so little time
to be what we are
to be what we want

to see that which we are
in love forever
until such time
when we burn bright

at the mercy of the wind
lies our fate
lies our love
there together

(for J)
11/05/08