When I first started this thing it was with the intention to keep track of everything that was going on in my head - mainly trans related stuff. I wanted to track my transition, or at least bits and pieces of it. But somewhere in between moving to LA, working at teh evil corporate bookstore, and not having internet, it just didn't happen. I'm now ( Read more... )

yesterday was a reminder that even if i can't change the situation i can change my own response. other than that, most of it was hellish. i'm still working on the being-in-the-moment (especially when the moment is quite unpleasant) thing ( Read more... )

It feels sooooo good to get rid of stuffWhat's coming : books!, clothes, bike, yoga mats and zafu, yarn and gesso and beads, kitchen stuff, plants, me ( Read more... )

For anyone interested in trans stuff, specifically FTM "issues", I highly recommend James Green's Becoming a Visible Man. I haven't finished it yet, but I'm already thinking of folks I wanna pass it on to. I managed to control myself at A Different Light yesterday, but I still want to get That's Revolting : Queer Strategies for Resisting ( Read more... )

perhaps the title of this post should be "how gay are we ( Read more... )

Eatin' an apple and thinking about life.

How is it that I've gotten to the point where the majority of the anxiety.stress.emotional drama. that I deal with is a result of other people's ideas about what is best for me/what I should or shouldn't do with my life/how I'm failing them/blah blah blah...? Why is it so fucking hard to do what's best for ( Read more... )

My mother just asked me if I was *still* considering transitioning. For some reason this makes me laugh, if only because I realise my family may never understand or support my decision...and right now I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm tired of playing nice. Game over.

MY THREE MONTHS ARE UP AND I GET MY LETTER NEXT WEEK!!!!!

I HAVE NOT STOPPED SMILING ALL MORNING.

MORE LATER. BUT...

HAPPINESS!!!

I'm not really sure where to begin. I've been dealing with a lot lately - mostly body related - but every time I sit down to explore.process.write.create... I get stuck. I think I had the expectation that my disconnect with my body would somehow get better (without starting T) after going through therapy. It hasn't. Should I take this as some sort ( Read more... )

I just finished reading How the Homosexuals Saved Civilization (ridiculous title, hilarious book) and realised it was the first time I came across the word "fey" outside of a radical faery/queer spirituality publication. *happy sigh* E. id's as a fag, but me thinks fey is a much better description for myself ( Read more... )