So far I have not had the most confident start to the year. 1st  of Jan, I had a shocking experience that night. Something that could have been very bad for me, then on the 1st of Feb, I had to have micro-surgery on my right index finger and at that point uni was falling apart around me and the reason I fell over apart from being clumsy was because ( Read more... )

It has been an interesting two days. After the big storms on tuesday night, we lost power, the box connecting us to the street power blew up! too much rain. this happened about 1am, apparently  it was to do with all the rain the last week or so.

So i get up wednesday morning, to find we have no power. Okay, whatever, thats cool. I managed to have a ( Read more... )

For tjhe first time, in weeks, I have the time to update my livejournal. I almost feel as though I have betrayed it, having not posted in so long. but honestly I have not had the time. After jumping from Marat Sade into Pantomime both of which were amazing I jumped into my executive producer role for Godzilla.

In between that fighting with family ( Read more... )

GOD. What a week.

Im frustrated that I am STILL not working, despite having been looking and looking for a new job. Nothing has come out of it, I musyt have dropped my resume off at about 15 places, not one. NOT ONE.!!!!

I feel like I'm stuck and everyone else is moving on ahead of me, they are getting opportunities, moving on with their lives, and I ( Read more... )

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net.

I can't describe my current mood, I have been so up ( Read more... )

This is going to be a completely self indulgent, I feel sorry for myself and am in a depressed mood post, hence I am cutting it for so no one has to read it unless they want to

I HATE being dependant on people, I can't tell you how much I hate it.

I have done it all my life, and it only really hit me now how much I rely on my friends and family.

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A year ago today.

As the year continues to melt into an oblivion,I find myself looking back over the year and questioning things....

The events of the last few days with MacMS and Dramac, and the events of the past year, have had me questioning. Am I being punished for somehting I did this year? last year? in my childhood, am I being punished  for lying to my ( Read more... )