Comments | t0xicwastez0ne: you have no fucking room to feel the way that you do.

t0xicwastez0ne

you have no fucking room to feel the way that you do.

Jun 20, 2004 10:25

ok so i've been really indecisive lately... things are starting to get more and more serious between me and shane each day. but the more i want to be with him, the more i think about whats going to happen after high school. as of now, i seriously dont think we'll be together forever. i love him, but once i go to college i might meet someone ( Read more... )

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lonelybrokendol June 20 2004, 11:38:52 UTC

hey sweetie. i get that way too all the time, i think it's normal. try not to be pessimistic, it really messes with things. i think it's really cool that you're stil a virgin. nick and i had sex after 2 months, lol. but it's not weird or anything that you don't have sex, i actually really admire it. but maybe if you do decide to have sex with him, things will clear up for you and you'll be even more in love.

and i think that if you are in love, you can't be attracted to anyone else. but that's just me. my friend nicole went away to college and her and her boyfriend stayed together, and everything with them is great. also, you probly won't go to college for a year or two anyway, so you have a lot of time to be with shane and you'll have a lot of time to think. i think that it's more important to focus on the here and now, and not think too far ahead because you never know what's going to happen between now and then.

i hope you make all the right decisions and you're happy with them. much luck to you!

hmmm missymissdrama June 20 2004, 11:42:22 UTC

Well, I know you love Shane a lot, but you shouldnt count your chickens before they hatch.... you just never know what could happen in the next 4 years. On a lighter note--I like your icon!

think happy... truelyimmortal June 20 2004, 15:38:21 UTC

okay. I have a lot to say and I want to make it as clear as possible. I know exactly how you feel, except with my relationship sex isnt involved...who knows when ill have sex but thats the last thing on my mind right now. Since its on ur mind, I wanna be able to help you out like we had talked about so much ( ... )

Re: think happy... t0xicwastez0ne June 20 2004, 15:59:47 UTC

ya all those things went thru my mind (ESPECIALLY the car thing lol...jk) and ya it makes sense. shane says that hes never going to leave me, but theres the slight chance that he will someday. i love him, but theres a lot of kinds of love. im just not sure if my love is the type that makes a person stay with someone forever...in reality i havent been with him for that long and so i cant be too sure. and the thing about college...im gunna meet new people and there MIGHT be someone for me. im happy with shane, but what if theres someone i could be happier with? if i stay with shane for that long, theres going to be so much im missing out on. i care about him soo much, more than anything, but the thought on loosing that freedom kinda makes me sad. i know i sound really selfish...but im really supposed to be experiencing things and all that fun stuff. and ya, shane also wants to do it, just as much as me. but he kinda jumps into things and is automatically sure about things..unlike me where i have to think everything through. ( ... )

Re: think happy... xt0xicfangx June 25 2004, 00:31:06 UTC

*sigh* shit. i was sooooo close to losing it ya know? like...SO fucking close. and i am glad that i didnt. i mean...look who it was *shivers* i mean if i actually liked him like the way u and shane are then fuck yea i woulda dun it ina heart beat becuase it would have actually meant sumthing. but both him and i were in it jes fur the ride and for the phisical feeling of it. and ya know i dont regret any of that stuff i DID do. and i would do it all over again even with the knowledge of the concequences it ended up leading to. i mean hell it was fun and it didnt scar me emotionally. but if i had gone thru with the losing of the virginity, theres def a huge chance it would have effected me more. sure the whole situation sucked reeeally bad fur awhile after but things are ok now. and i mean who knows, maybe it could have turned out NOT being that big ofa deal, but then again mabye it was. its jes...it would have been purley for the fling of it with nothing real behind it. i had so much fun doing what i did. and like u said about the ( ... )

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