you have no fucking room to feel the way that you do.

[t0xicwastez0ne]

ok so i've been really indecisive lately... things are starting to get more and more serious between me and shane each day. but the more i want to be with him, the more i think about whats going to happen after high school. as of now, i seriously dont think we'll be together forever. i love him, but once i go to college i might meet someone else..i guess it depends on how our relationhip is at that time. im still a virgin, i'm hating myself right now for making this public (of course not everyone really reads this shit), and i feel that shanes the only one i could ever loose my virginity to. but once we start having sex im afraid that im going to be emotionally bound to him and i wont be able to let go..even when the time to let go does come. it sux that im thinking this far in advance and it sux that im being pessimistic...i just dont know if this is a good thing for us. i mean, it doesnt matter how long we wait throughout highschool, its just whats after it that gets to me. blah, i think i will anyways..or should i?

oh ya, and yesterday i went through like..20 icons and im still not sure which one should be my default..grr.

AND i better god damn get that whole valevictorian or whatever the fuck its called thing when im a senior cuz i already planned out my speech. yup, thats how bored i was yesterday. its a damn good speech too..wow im just too cool. <333