thats what my communication teacher called it last year. when something gets in the way of recieving information. the form today: thoughts.

chicago likes a girl.
and its not me.and i think i get it ( Read more... )

so i was thinking about the last yeah in terms of guys. and in the last year i have dated 2.5 men, realistically. chandler and flapo (althought he was almost iffy, but its what i would call "dating.") and then sort of was seeing the piercer for a while. thats it. all year. since temecula. and that almost doesnt count. and adam e for all of a week ( Read more... )

chicago just came online, and my world flip flopped.

oy.

damn i hate chatting on aim when id much rather just see the person.

and now we have talked. and he still blows my mind. its almost been a month. and im sitting here with the big ass grin on my face. he just knocked everyone else out of the water.

and continues to do so.

so ive been thinking. of chicago. of course. its strange how much i think of him. and of green eyes. i mean its been almost a year since we've talked face to face. and of hands. its strange im used to seeing oftenish. and now im not so much and i miss him too. we ran into eachother on friday and saturday ( Read more... )

i still fucking miss him ( Read more... )

we stood there, watching the show, making comments back and forth. him disapearing once in a while to get another beer or smoke another cigerette. me talking with his friends. sitting down stairs watching them warm up. and watching them play. its one thing to know someone. and another entirly to watch some one you know play a show. and to have our ( Read more... )

stealing onion rings at fudruckers. getting attached to the bench. watching prison break. going through a six back of smeirnof ice by myself. dr peper and vodka was a bad idea. laguna beach. walking in the fountin. "dancing" under the moon. cigerettes. 27. timothy paul rogner. haley "no middle name" forest. the "morning" news. talks about cars and ( Read more... )

tonight i had several .... well... lets call them events ( Read more... )