So today had been full of surprises. I worked at 11 this morning and on my way I checked the mail. There was a card in the mailbox for me. A Valentine's day card. For me! From, of all people, my father! I couldn't believe it, never have I gotten a card from my father. And this is a hallmark card, in his handwriting. Blew my mind. But it's nice, ( Read more... )

I am so frustrated and angry and resentful toward my mother right now.  I know I shouldn't be but I am.  I feel very petty feeling like this but I can't help it.  I almost wish it had been a closed adoption so my mother wouldn't be able to know her.  I want a relationship, not her.  It's not fair that she can just pop in whenever she likes.  I can' ( Read more... )

Monica is 17 today.  Seventeen years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.  She has grown into a beautiful young lady and maybe someday I will get to meet her.  

Because St. Monica deserves recognition on her Feast Day.

God couldn't be everywhere so he created mothers. - Jewish Proverb

“Nothing is far from God.” St Monica

“Son, nothing in this world now affords me delight. I do not know what there is now for me to do or why I am still here, all my hopes in this world being now fulfilled.”

~ About the conversion ( Read more... )

Well I have had a relatively bicker free two weeks and now that is all about to come to a screeching halt. Yes I have missed the girls, but I sure am not looking forward to the drama that comes with them to come back. From what I hear my presence is requested for next years foray to the Vineyard. Somehow I don't see that happening. I feel out ( Read more... )

Ok, so much has happened over the last few days ( Read more... )

Hello. It is Birth Mothers day. I am so glad I have other children to take my mind off of Monica. It keeps wandering back to her though. She'll be 7 next month, growing so fast. It's been so long, yet it seems like only yesterday. Elizabeth wrote a poem for me and it made me think of her, only because I'd never done any of those mommy things for ( Read more... )