Resenting my mother

Jul 25, 2013 14:15

I am so frustrated and angry and resentful toward my mother right now.  I know I shouldn't be but I am.  I feel very petty feeling like this but I can't help it.  I almost wish it had been a closed adoption so my mother wouldn't be able to know her.  I want a relationship, not her.  It's not fair that she can just pop in whenever she likes.  I can't go to NY every month or 2.  It's not fair.  She has had dinner with her twice.  And has already made plans to next month too.  It's just not fair!  I wish I could control it.  I just wish I could make her stop seeing her.  I want to meet her.  I guess I should have made the arrangements with Ed and Janet, that is what she is doing.  I really want the contact to be up to her, not forced.  I wish I could say something to mom to make her not contact Monica again.  I know it's petty and childish but she is my daughter and my mother just sticks her nose into everything I just wish she would butt OUT!  Let us connect. Now even that piece of shit of a sperm donor father of mine has met her. I hate my parents.  That is something that at 40 I should have outgrown right?  

mom, rant, monica, crying, depressed

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