My first Dominant once took me to the beach and handed me a broom. He said, " I want you to sweep the beach, please" I looked at him like he had lost his mind. I started to protest but he placed a finger over my lips and said, " No. sweep." I spent about two hours, " pointlessly" sweeping the beach. He sat on a bench nearby watching me. About the ( Read more... )

Today I feel like I have fallen off a horse and am having a hard time wanting to get back into the saddle ( Read more... )

One of the early philosophies that my instructor/ mentor/Sensei taught me was about the true meaning of success and failure ( Read more... )

I think the great Author Bohdi Sanders said it best when he told me that if I want more peace in my life I should," Realize that things do not have to be about positive or negative, It can be about simply observing life and relating it to ourselves ( Read more... )

In an effort to live a more stress free life and to defeat the despair and depression I have been feeling I have issued a 30 day challenge to myself"

I will have no expectation of truthfulness.

Someone once told me that you can guage the value and worth that you hold in anothers eyes by the way they respond to your tears. Today I understand that fully and love that I have found the ability to shed them. Another person told me that tears are the souls way of removing toxins and not a mark of weakness... I get that too.

It was only in solitude that I learned I am not alone, perhaps I never was ( Read more... )

Today it occurs to me that I would much rather do the WRONG thing for the RIGHT reasons than do the RIGHT thing for the WRONG reasons. It suddenly occurs to me how much motivation really does matter in the grand scheme of things. We often judge others by their actions, but prefer to be judged by our intent. I desire to always judge people by their ( Read more... )

I speak but words do not come forth. I cry yet tears do not fall. I climb but do not rise. I swim yet I sink. I crawl yet do not move. I grasp and only air fills my hand......

Pointlessness....

Life is funny sometimes. The way nature sometimes just calls your name and reminds you of lifes small lessons. Well, it is either that or I just read way too much into things.

All along the front of my house I have tall rose bushes. At the start of Springtime they were all so high that I decided to cut them back. Most of them stand about 5 feet tall ( Read more... )