I find it a little hard to keep up here because writing everything up for Facebook, and then copying it here and to Livejournal manually, takes time, and I don't always do it at the same time even though I keep wanting to. At one point, I was thinking about learning enough Javascript to write something that will automate this for me, but I didn't ( Read more... )

On the day after my birthday, I went out to my appointment at the gender clinic here in Hamilton and, I dunno, I just thought I looked kind of nice?

The doctor I saw was fabulous. As I thought, the clinic here doesn't offer family doctor services. She wasn't sure if the one in Milton does: if not, I'll just keep going to the Hamilton one and wait ( Read more... )

I self-medicate with food, and I've been having a really hard time not stuffing myself to the point of real pain sometimes. I've been trying to be more active and bike more and lose weight for a long time, and I was getting somewhere this past spring and summer, but now, I don't know. I don't really know how to deal with what's going on in the US. 
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The way my hair pours in gentle waves down my chest and over my breasts after I shower reminds me of when I first had long hair in my, I think, early teens. I had seen plenty of fantasy novel covers and other art with women (or mermaids, or fem faeries, or what-have-you) painted with their hair strategically concealing those terrible female nipples ( Read more... )

A couple days ago, Miriam and I were playing Baldur's Gate 3 together and I was hit hard by the sadness of not having had girl experiences growing up. One of the characters reconnected with a childhood friend, and they talked about spending time together in a hidden place that other people didn't know about, doing things like talking and braiding ( Read more... )

I bought a network media player at the thrift store and it does exactly what I wanted: I can play music and videos from my computer on the TV and/or receiver. Great!

So I tested it out by watching the beginning (which turned into the first half or so) of Project A-ko, which I haven't seen any of since before transitioning, and I had Thoughts about ( Read more... )

I wore my new apron to make dinner today.

I still have a deep inner conflict between

*feeling that our social construction of gender, even as a spectrum between masc and fem, is both irrational and a significant form of oppression for so many people, and feeling like the whole concept should be abolished

*finding that doing/having frilly girl ( Read more... )

Miriam bought me a corset, and I love it *so* much! I usually really avoid wearing this shirt (it's one I thrifted shortly after the fire), and felt very "guy" wearing it. But wearing a corset, it shows my reshaped silhouette in a pretty euphoric way.

Getting squeezed in a really tight hug for hours at a time is a really nice bonus. I've loved the ( Read more... )

These past couple of weeks were difficult in a few ways. Miriam's parents were for a week. Her dad is pretty conservative in a lot of ways and I got kind of upset with him a few times. I got sick about halfway through their visit. My best guess is I caught something while at the dentist without a mask while people were in close vicinity of my open ( Read more... )

I just did my voice training for the day and my throat is really feeling it!

I get really self-conscious about doing this with people around: even Miriam. She often naps during the day so I tend to do it then. Today, she's out at the chronic pain center, so it was another good time. I do want to keep doing this while her parents are visiting, but I ( Read more... )