i've been reading old lj entries, hoping to be inspired to come up with ideas for my 10-minute dialogue script. no luck in that area, but i did realize how immensely different i am now as opposed to 2 or 3 years ago. i used to be all 'boo-hoo, life sucks, i'm gonna die alone' now, although i still go through brief phases of feeling like that ( ( Read more... )

I can never sleep on the nights when I really need to. Honestly. First days back at work and first days back at school are the worst. second only to nights before major trips. It's nights like these that make my brain wander instead of lulling nicely into darkness and dreams. Tonight my brain has wandered into not so great territory, where it ( Read more... )

I finally got around to cleaning out my closet. In a most unexpected move, I have managed to empty most of the unnecessary items from my past out of said space. For some reason I still cannot bring myself to entirely rid myself of childhood comforts and playthings, on the off chance that i might, some day, have kids of my own. That is still a ( Read more... )

You know when you finally shave your legs and it's been a while and suddenly they're all soft and smooth? I did that today. Put lotion on and everything. Now I can't stop touching them. it makes me feel like a girl...or a drag queen. either way ( Read more... )

Read this first: http://www.laddertheory.com/

Then: ( my response )

We watched several episodes of 'Freaks and Geeks' today and it was excellent as always. I just realized that I am totally Lindsay except my Lindsay-ness happened in 8th grade instead of in high school. I left the 'Mathletes' or, to be more accurate in my case, the band geeks and joined up with a group of very nice, but definitely less savory ( Read more... )

I am so done with this moody bullshit. I'm kicking depression in the ass and realizing that my friends can get me through anything. No matter how complicated everything else in my life gets, my friendships remain stable and completely satisfying. So there it is. I think I can be happy like this ( Read more... )

you can do it. you will make it. today will be different. today you can face it. your room is your prison. break free. you can go to work. they need you there. you can't let sickness restrain you. be responsible. no more sleeping in. do your work, drop your class, get your grades. finish this semsester, you know you can. and when it ( Read more... )