please, no one take this the wrong way, ok?

[stealtheternal]

first of all since I know certain people might actually read this and make up their own little minds as to what it all means, just shut up and listen, it has nothing to do with anyone but myself. now that that is all clear... What can you do when you like a girl, I mean love a girl and dont wanna lose what you have, but for some reason, you think

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-Heyow-

[_sexxikitten_]

Hey you, well I read it. I took it the wrong way at first.. but now I understand.If there's something you want to talk about.. and it's something like that, please don't be worried to come talk to me. I know it's weird becuase me and you never talk about things like that, but I'd really like if we did. You know I love you with all my heart beebs, but I wanna know what's going on inside of your nugbone!!! and if there's certain things you need from me, weither it be something bad or good. Sometimes when reading your journal I don't understand it and get it wrong, that's why Im always having my break downs and shit. If you just talk to me and I get it cleary, things wouldn't be that way and I prolly wouldn't be upset about shit either. But Im happy I know now. There's just some things I think about too, n I don't wanna make you feel like Im keeping something from you so.. I guess we will see. Love you beebs <3 and member what I said.. It's okay to talk to me! and hey, if I got it wrong again, feel free to elaborate! :-*

Re: BEEBZ!

[_sexxikitten_]

Yes, I do understand a lot more now. Thank you for telling me! Im just kind of wondering, why would you want to be more single and able to play? I mean flirting I dont care as long as I dont see it, you know? I don't know.. sometimes I did kind of feel bad that Im all over Kimi and Ashley and you have no one else, but then again, if you wanted to be all over boys, I wouldnt care. At all .. its just girls .. then I feel like .. I dunno beebs, I almost cant explain myself, To be honest Ive never really felt completely perfect when around you I guess. That's why sometimes I have such problems with you hanging out with girls. I always thought well oh if he doesnt think im good enough, what if he decides some other girl is better? Which Im sure you already have ..I dunno. I know all of this is stupid and prolly way off the subject. I have stupid feelings in my head too. I really don't want you to be "with" me.. or think you have to stay or something.. then that just makes everything more complicated for me. At the same time I dont want

beeb..

[_sexxikitten_]

Beebs, I love you so much, and as much as in my head I wanna wander, I do not wanna lose you, and you know this, and the openness of seeing other people would have to be mutual, and I cannot let you be with any other guys, and I am sure you dont wanna be, so...and you know I am more than ok with you being with girls and messin around and what not, its all cool, and you can not bring up me being with boys being ok, to me, it isnt ok, I am not gay and have no interest in guys. AT ALL! but what I always wanted was two gfs, who could also be together. one big happy sexy family. but I am a guy, and it is probably the same for most of us, i dont know. I know you and I could never have that kind of relationship, you couldnt share me, and I am ok with that. but still I need you to have a GF or whatever you consider ashley is ok too... but I have to get to work, i lvoe you :) and honestly, yes there is a girl I like, whom you would probably like too ;) but she has a BF so.. no worries there, there isnt a chance for me to stray

[_sexxikitten_]

You are an evil lil shit .. and a dick as well:)

WoW~!!!!

[sweetz_4u]

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