please, no one take this the wrong way, ok?
first of all since I know certain people might actually read this and make up their own little minds as to what it all means, just shut up and listen, it has nothing to do with anyone but myself. now that that is all clear... What can you do when you like a girl, I mean love a girl and dont wanna lose what you have, but for some reason, you think that is what is holding you back from becoming what you need to be? Like say, I wanna be able to go out and flirt and play and all that stuff, it has been a long time since I could have that first conversation with a girl wondering where it might go. when you are attached, all conversations seem to be the same cause you know there is nothing you can do but be friends with them. I feel like I am stuck in a rut with no where to go, cause my only options kinda kill the whole thing. it sucks liking a girl, and it sucks more being with them, whther GF or best friend with feelings or whatever, if it makes you feel bad cause sometimes you dont feel completely happy. completely happy with them, yes, not completely happy with life in general, cause you are feeling a lil behind the pack. I am 26, and I want to get my life in order, and I feel for that, I should have anyone to answer to or be tied to, just friends. Nothing more, someone who can come hang out, stay over, or I can stay over with them. and just chill, not have to worry about anyhitng sexual, or worry about anyone getting upset that I am hanging out with some other chick or something. I mean, is it so bad to wanna grow up and sever some ties, or change the status of some things?
So, right now, I am working two full time jobs, I have the jobs I want, I have the car I want, all I need now, is a place away from my parents, yes 26 and living at home, I suck... if things go well, i should be moving into a nice lil house with my boss MS anne, the owner of the tattoo shop I am workin in. I will have my own room, and can bring my friends over and they can stay over if I want them to. not that there are many who would wanna, but hey, I got a PS2 and a bass guitar, someone is bound to wanna come hang out, right? and a nice garage to jam in :)
So, any ideas people? though I know there are only like two people who might EVER read this, I guess it doesnt matter what I say, I am a dumbass, I am scared of my life right now, cause it is just starting to work out and some of the things i need to change, I am scared to, for fear of hurting people, and possibly, ruining many good things in my life. I dont even have time for a girl anymore, I dont know why the one I do kinda got would wanna sit around and wait to see me or talk to me, when I am too tired to talk and have nothing to say anymore, Ive said all there is, all I can do is listen now, every day is the same in my boring lil life, and I kinda like it, just need some things a lil different to help move on and get somewhere. any one understand that?
night all JD
So, right now, I am working two full time jobs, I have the jobs I want, I have the car I want, all I need now, is a place away from my parents, yes 26 and living at home, I suck... if things go well, i should be moving into a nice lil house with my boss MS anne, the owner of the tattoo shop I am workin in. I will have my own room, and can bring my friends over and they can stay over if I want them to. not that there are many who would wanna, but hey, I got a PS2 and a bass guitar, someone is bound to wanna come hang out, right? and a nice garage to jam in :)
So, any ideas people? though I know there are only like two people who might EVER read this, I guess it doesnt matter what I say, I am a dumbass, I am scared of my life right now, cause it is just starting to work out and some of the things i need to change, I am scared to, for fear of hurting people, and possibly, ruining many good things in my life. I dont even have time for a girl anymore, I dont know why the one I do kinda got would wanna sit around and wait to see me or talk to me, when I am too tired to talk and have nothing to say anymore, Ive said all there is, all I can do is listen now, every day is the same in my boring lil life, and I kinda like it, just need some things a lil different to help move on and get somewhere. any one understand that?
night all JD