please, no one take this the wrong way, ok?

[stealtheternal]

first of all since I know certain people might actually read this and make up their own little minds as to what it all means, just shut up and listen, it has nothing to do with anyone but myself. now that that is all clear... What can you do when you like a girl, I mean love a girl and dont wanna lose what you have, but for some reason, you think

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beeb..

[_sexxikitten_]

Beebs, I love you so much, and as much as in my head I wanna wander, I do not wanna lose you, and you know this, and the openness of seeing other people would have to be mutual, and I cannot let you be with any other guys, and I am sure you dont wanna be, so...and you know I am more than ok with you being with girls and messin around and what not, its all cool, and you can not bring up me being with boys being ok, to me, it isnt ok, I am not gay and have no interest in guys. AT ALL! but what I always wanted was two gfs, who could also be together. one big happy sexy family. but I am a guy, and it is probably the same for most of us, i dont know. I know you and I could never have that kind of relationship, you couldnt share me, and I am ok with that. but still I need you to have a GF or whatever you consider ashley is ok too... but I have to get to work, i lvoe you :) and honestly, yes there is a girl I like, whom you would probably like too ;) but she has a BF so.. no worries there, there isnt a chance for me to stray.

And as you know beebs, I love you so much as well. I would hate to lose you. I just don't get why you would ever think that way .. I mean, we been "together" or friends with feelings or whatever for 2 years, and we've shared feelings and things with eachother im sure neither of us have ever had, well, what Ive never had and I just didnt understand why you'd want to throw that away just to go fuck around with other girls. I don't know. Im not you so I couldn't figure out why. Im glad that you didn't though. And yeah, the whole 2 gf thing, I know lots of guys who like that stuff. I dunno, sharing would just be hard. I hate feeling like Im not enough. Or you need more.. or something. I dont exactly get what you mean by you like her .. like her like her or friendly like her, n why'd you'd ever want to even try ..again, I feel like you want other people I dunno .. this is what I mean by not feeling completely perfect around you, like I just cant be all you need. I don't know. I just know I love you and wanna "stay" with you..n yeah i would not want to be with other guys, just you beebs n Im glad we got past this. I don't know what I would do!!! so, yes, I know things are hard for you, working and keeping up with sleep and all that. I wish there was something I could do to help, again all I gots is love.. love you beebs~HeHe~