A General Update
Chris accepted a new job today. In Vienna, of course. He will not be moving to Prague in the foreseeable future. I have been amazingly calm about this, probably because I saw it coming for a while. I’m trying to have an if-it’s-mean-to-be-it-will-be attitude and succeeding, mostly, I think.
As I’ve said many times before, I see myself staying in Prague until 2010, so I have time to let this relationship grow. If we’re no longer together then or it seems to be going nowhere, I will most likely move back to the US. I would really like to be closer to my family.
My sister got married on New Year’s Day, and I was not in attendance. A Skype video call was attempted but it kept dropping, so I got to see everyone as they called back again and again, but I saw only about 20 seconds of the ceremony. My sister’s new father-in-law filmed it, though, so I’ll see it on tape. I am happy for her, and I do wish I had been there, but not in a regretful way. I don’t regret my decision; I simply think it would have been nice to share.
Chris will be here this weekend, and I think we’re going to play badminton with Caroline and Jirka. She’s really sick right now (I seem to have passed on my stomach flu to her), but she should be better by then. I expect that I will suck in amazing ways at badminton but I’ll give it a go.
Chris and I are also planning a trip to Athens. I set my sights on a March-May timeline, because the weather should be beautiful then but it shouldn’t be as tourist-packed or blisteringly hot as the summer. But now that he’s changing jobs, he may get some paid time off, so perhaps we’ll go in February. I just need to check the weather.
Finally, I went back to that meditative art therapist that I have twice tried before. I saw her yesterday, and I was mostly pleased with her, but we’ll see how long it lasts this time. In general, I find her a bit too quick to jump to easy answers (my issues with men have NOTHING to do with my dad, lady, please) and somewhat judgmental plus the art part of it is really hokey to me. But I need to see someone, and she already knows my history, so I will give it another go.
There were a few constructive things that came out of our meeting yesterday-namely, she observed that I think too many steps ahead and find myself getting frustrated by things before I even begin. She said that it’s ok to want something and not know exactly how to get there. It, of course, made me wonder if I should stop taking German lessons, because I’ve started taking them as a way of getting to Chris, but I think this is a bad interpretation. Possibly, taking the German lessons = good; thinking about how many years of lessons and how much practice I’ll need to be employable in a German-speaking society = bad.
So, I have my next German lesson on Thursday. Honestly, I am not at a level that is even the slightest bit communicative, but I am learning things, so I will stick with it. Baby steps, Kate. The big picture is so scary.
As I’ve said many times before, I see myself staying in Prague until 2010, so I have time to let this relationship grow. If we’re no longer together then or it seems to be going nowhere, I will most likely move back to the US. I would really like to be closer to my family.
My sister got married on New Year’s Day, and I was not in attendance. A Skype video call was attempted but it kept dropping, so I got to see everyone as they called back again and again, but I saw only about 20 seconds of the ceremony. My sister’s new father-in-law filmed it, though, so I’ll see it on tape. I am happy for her, and I do wish I had been there, but not in a regretful way. I don’t regret my decision; I simply think it would have been nice to share.
Chris will be here this weekend, and I think we’re going to play badminton with Caroline and Jirka. She’s really sick right now (I seem to have passed on my stomach flu to her), but she should be better by then. I expect that I will suck in amazing ways at badminton but I’ll give it a go.
Chris and I are also planning a trip to Athens. I set my sights on a March-May timeline, because the weather should be beautiful then but it shouldn’t be as tourist-packed or blisteringly hot as the summer. But now that he’s changing jobs, he may get some paid time off, so perhaps we’ll go in February. I just need to check the weather.
Finally, I went back to that meditative art therapist that I have twice tried before. I saw her yesterday, and I was mostly pleased with her, but we’ll see how long it lasts this time. In general, I find her a bit too quick to jump to easy answers (my issues with men have NOTHING to do with my dad, lady, please) and somewhat judgmental plus the art part of it is really hokey to me. But I need to see someone, and she already knows my history, so I will give it another go.
There were a few constructive things that came out of our meeting yesterday-namely, she observed that I think too many steps ahead and find myself getting frustrated by things before I even begin. She said that it’s ok to want something and not know exactly how to get there. It, of course, made me wonder if I should stop taking German lessons, because I’ve started taking them as a way of getting to Chris, but I think this is a bad interpretation. Possibly, taking the German lessons = good; thinking about how many years of lessons and how much practice I’ll need to be employable in a German-speaking society = bad.
So, I have my next German lesson on Thursday. Honestly, I am not at a level that is even the slightest bit communicative, but I am learning things, so I will stick with it. Baby steps, Kate. The big picture is so scary.