Put Your Past in the Past
Yesterday was my first therapy session, and it was...nice. I think it helped me a little, just being able to TALK to someone.
Miss Nancy (my therapist) brought up my mother leaving. She asked me how that happened...
I hadn't had to tell that story before. I don't like to. But I told it, and she looked at me, amazed, and asked, "How did you ever get over that betrayal?"
Betrayal? No, I don't use that word. I don't use it for that situation. Never.
Mom's been forgiven. I wouldn't change a thing. I mean yes, I wish she was here sometimes, but I can't change things. She did what she had to do, for her.
For a woman who's given everything she has her entire life to others, I don't mind her selfish act. I understand, now that I'm ready to start a life of my own. Happiness isn't something you should have to fight for. Mom wasn't searching for freedom; she just wanted a chance to find herself.
And she found her. :)
I love Mom. I would do anything for her. She's my second best friend. The one person (other than Sami) I can go to for just about anything. She'd help me any way she could.
And I'll never let something get between us. Ever.
The past is the past. She left us 3 years ago...almost 4. I can't change the physical distance between us, but I can keep her as close to me mentally as possible.
And I think that next year, when I'm there for college, I'll feel much better at her side.
4 years with Mom...after being without her for 4.
No matter what, I can't get those years back...
But who wants to worry over that? Not me!
I live to the fullest, you know. :) Can't dwell on things you can't change.
Remember that!
Miss Nancy (my therapist) brought up my mother leaving. She asked me how that happened...
I hadn't had to tell that story before. I don't like to. But I told it, and she looked at me, amazed, and asked, "How did you ever get over that betrayal?"
Betrayal? No, I don't use that word. I don't use it for that situation. Never.
Mom's been forgiven. I wouldn't change a thing. I mean yes, I wish she was here sometimes, but I can't change things. She did what she had to do, for her.
For a woman who's given everything she has her entire life to others, I don't mind her selfish act. I understand, now that I'm ready to start a life of my own. Happiness isn't something you should have to fight for. Mom wasn't searching for freedom; she just wanted a chance to find herself.
And she found her. :)
I love Mom. I would do anything for her. She's my second best friend. The one person (other than Sami) I can go to for just about anything. She'd help me any way she could.
And I'll never let something get between us. Ever.
The past is the past. She left us 3 years ago...almost 4. I can't change the physical distance between us, but I can keep her as close to me mentally as possible.
And I think that next year, when I'm there for college, I'll feel much better at her side.
4 years with Mom...after being without her for 4.
No matter what, I can't get those years back...
But who wants to worry over that? Not me!
I live to the fullest, you know. :) Can't dwell on things you can't change.
Remember that!