Whoa. Sit Down. Chill.
So last night was a really serious turning point for me. I broke down and called Sami, and I told her about my hopeless feelings, my bad thoughts, and how tired I am. I can't sleep. I don't want to eat. Sometimes I act normal, like I laugh when things are funny, but I never feel entirely "there". I feel like something's not quite with me. I'm not quite here. And there's nothing wrong; there's no trigger whatsoever. My classes are great, band is fantastic, I love my friends and my family is getting along. Dwayne and I are awesome.
So why am I always so tired? Why can't I sleep? Why the headaches, and the hopeless feelings?
Sami told me to tell Mom what's up. She suspects depression.
Took some guts but I finally called Mom, and she and Terry were completely cool about it. Mom told me to tell Dad (holy shit) about everything (true, I couldn't keep him in the dark), and to see a doctor. Depression DOES run in our family...
So as awkward as it was, I told Dad. He scheduled an appointment for me next Wednesday, just to talk to a doctor. I have no idea what to say, or what questions to ask. I just want to know a.) is it stress and b.) what NATURAL (no pills, please) cures can help me. Things like exercising and stuff, I guess.
Pills are a serious last resort.
I really hope nothing's wrong. I hope it IS just a phase.
I don't need this. :|
So why am I always so tired? Why can't I sleep? Why the headaches, and the hopeless feelings?
Sami told me to tell Mom what's up. She suspects depression.
Took some guts but I finally called Mom, and she and Terry were completely cool about it. Mom told me to tell Dad (holy shit) about everything (true, I couldn't keep him in the dark), and to see a doctor. Depression DOES run in our family...
So as awkward as it was, I told Dad. He scheduled an appointment for me next Wednesday, just to talk to a doctor. I have no idea what to say, or what questions to ask. I just want to know a.) is it stress and b.) what NATURAL (no pills, please) cures can help me. Things like exercising and stuff, I guess.
Pills are a serious last resort.
I really hope nothing's wrong. I hope it IS just a phase.
I don't need this. :|