I'm falling again. Ugh. Nothing good seems to happen just for ME. I've been working my butt off trying to keep my family functioning and happy, and taking care of mom and my uncle and the girls (with mom's help)... but I'm starting to dream sad dreams lately... dreams of lost love... mainly of Sean ( Read more... )

Sooo... amidst all of the frustration and sadness in my life comes the news that my old roommate, deceased ex-boyfriend's Dad, just had a heart-attack... How can I even THINK about Andrew now?! Sadly... it isn't so. Yes, his word hurt. Yes, this whole thing has taken on a direction that I really have no idea where it came from... YES, I fell in ( Read more... )

"Okay so I know I just wrote you some stuff, but this is really on my mind right now, and I can tell you, this is about to be long, but I feel the need to share a little with you that may give you a lil too much information, but yeah... just a little forewarning I'm about to share a lil insight on what makes me the insecure person that I am today ( Read more... )

So many things have happened to me throughout the years. Most that I mention on here tend to be of the nature of the heart... so why break the trend right?! lol ( Read more... )

So I guess I fucked things up with JB. I should have never told him how much that I liked him... and I guess we never should have started talking the way that we did when he already had a girlfriend. He has stopped talking to me. I asked him yesterday if he wanted me to just leave him alone and he had said "no, not at all"... that he was just ( Read more... )

So I'm updating, I have a wordpress, but what I need to "get out" via typing, I can't do one there... too many eyes that I don't know hitting that blog. Ok so, I have two beautiful little girls. Delilah May is 18 months now (1 1/2 years), and Jillian Olivia is almost 19 weeks (about 4 1/2 months). They are amazing. I have LOTS of pictures of them ( Read more... )

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Stress stress stress... SO in this short amount of time, a lot of stuff has changed. Brian and I have decided that we are going to try to work things out, and I have found out that I am pregnant again. YAY... okay so not a good time, and not exactly what I was hoping for, but I'm still excited. I can't dwell on my past for the rest of my life, ( Read more... )

I'm trying to concentrate on work & baby Delilah. Today was hard though... I had the day off AND Delilah is with Brian's mom until Sunday. I find myself in a day to day pattern, without doing everything the same. I get up... usually around 1, sometimes before... mostly never. I go to mom's, I get online and check my email and MySpace, I browse ( Read more... )

Life couldn't be any less complicated right now. Things are actually going much more pleasantly than I had anticipated. Mom watches Delilah while I'm at work, so I get up around 1pm and get the both of us ready, than head out to Mom's. I eat lunch there, check my messages and fiddle around online a little, than I head out to work ( Read more... )