I haven't been here in a while but its never been far from my mind. I've gone from being 154lbs when I moved out on my own to being 185lbs 8 months after I moved back home.

Being constantly surrounded by foud in this house is torture. I try not to go near it but the boredom gets you. I started going to the gym a few times a week but I've seen no ( Read more... )

So I've not been doing well lately ( Read more... )

For the first time in ages I purged.
I haven't done it in months and I'm so dissappointed that I have done it again.
I had some potato and chicken curry and I actually felt horrible after it so I brought it all back up and I felt great for a while but now I'm just so ashamed that I resorted to that again.

Its mine and my boyfriends one year ( Read more... )

The scales lie.

Its quite clear I have lost weight. My stomach is definitely that bit flatter and my jeans are that bit looser. But the scales dont change. I have to get a new one when I get a god damn job.

So, in the last few months, nearly a year, my body has started to react differently to different foods.
I've developed a lactose intolerancy. I've ( Read more... )

Roysh,

I'm doing okay. I haven't weighed myself in a good while and I cant properly until no-one is at home. So far today I've had 1037 cals, thats only cause my boyfriend made me pizza and made me eat. My mom and younger sister are getting on a diet too because they're really really fat and they really need to lose alot of weight. I had a healthy ( Read more... )

Riiiiiiiight,

I'm doing okay so far today I've had 918 calories and I'll probably keep under 100 for the day.

It sounds like alot but for me its really good. Since I've REALLY started to count calories and all that I've noticed a significant drop in my calorie intake, Yesterday I had less that 700! Tomorrow I aim for 5/600 total intake for the day =]

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Okay,

I figured out why I'm failing so hard. I have no-one thats close to me that I can go to whenever I feel the urge to binge. I had a text buddy up until recently when she was forced into recovery and since then I haven't had anyone I can go to. It was so easy to have her only a text message away whenever either of us were failing and to have ( Read more... )

Okay today wasn't too bad but it was still pretty bad.

I had a coleslaw and lettuce sandwhich on brown bread cause my mom made me get food :(

Then I had to cook for my sister and her friend and when she saw I wasn't eating she went mad so I ate one tiny slice of pizza and four chicken goujons

It all adds up to about 6/700 cals and I had a litre of ( Read more... )

Okay so today so far I've drank almost 2 litres of water, had ten grapes, had some frickin popcorn when I went to the cinema cause my boyfriends watching me like a hawk cause he knows I'm trying to get smaller, then when I got home I had a small bit of marzipan with plain chocolate and thats it for the day.

I'm dissappointed in one way but happy in ( Read more... )

I've fallen off the wagon seriously.

I was doing so well up until october and I was down to 69kg (still pretty huge but it was my lowest).

I went to the doctor today for a check up and she weighed me and I'm now 82kg. I'm a fucking huge whale now and I was doing so well. My buddy went into recovery last year and without her support I just completly ( Read more... )