some how i've lost myself.
I've become someone unlike me.
People hate me, lothe me and think that im "crazy" and its not okay.
I dont know how this has happened but I hate it, and I hate myself.
I  just want the old me back, I dont want to feel pain and jealousy and everything in between.

I need to let go.

so yesterday ryan and i went on an adventure, just the two of us, which rarely happens. We went to Pleasure Beach and it was nice because we could get away from everything and everyone, but it was sort of depressing because the houses were completely destroyed. I was really bummed out because I thought I was really going to enjoy that place, but it ( Read more... )

If i gave you the sky and if i layed down my life would you believe me then?
if i promised to change and if I carried the blame would you believe me then? 
could you see it like me and believe what i see could you listen and remember that i love you only because i told you, because i told you so? and if you tell me you lied but i stayed true and ( Read more... )

I hate feeling this way. why can life be so simple. i was just talking the other day how i thought its weird how people come in and out of your life. How you can date someone and care about someone so much and then you break up and they are out of your life just as fast as they came in. I feel like it shouldnt be like that. I feel liek a boyfriend ( Read more... )

Why does everything go so smoothly and then suddenly stop.

 this is so hard, and i feel like i have no one to talk to because he was my best friend.

Fuck this.
I fucking hate how i am in the middle of all this shit.
I fucking hate how grown men can not suck it up and get along. 
I fucking hate how people feel the need to talk shit about other people in front of me when they know i care about the person.
I fucking hate people are so inconsiderate about others.
Even if you do not like someone, it ( Read more... )

 im over shawns house and i lovvvvvve herrrrr

i have the best friends!

BE JEALOUS.

I'm bored.

This town sucks now a days. I only have a limited amount of friends here now, that I would hang out with on a daily basis atleast. I find most of my time consists of laying in my bed, surfin the web, then again, it is rainy today so maybe thats why. I wish Providence wasnt so far away. Since gas is a rediculous amount of money, its hard ( Read more... )

I'm a burnt Sydney :(