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If i gave you the sky and if i layed down my life would you believe me then?
if i promised to change and if I carried the blame would you believe me then?
could you see it like me and believe what i see could you listen and remember that i love you only because i told you, because i told you so? and if you tell me you lied but i stayed true and tried would you believe me then?
and if your beauty was gone but my love lingered on you believe me then?
could you see it like me and believe what i see could you listen and remember that i love you only because i told you, because i told you so?
you take the wheel for now, im too tired to drive this one home anyhow, for now.
Ughhh with finals around the corner and my stress level skyrocketing, this is the last thing that i need. i dont need to think about ryan and worrying about him. we should be okay, everything should be okay. but its not because he always has to have these old habits that i feel like will never go away. do i kid myself that i hope maybe one day he'll change? i told myself that when we broke up that i wasnt going to care and i was just going to go with the flow and what happens happens. but of course that didnt happen and he still wanted to be with me and i of course wanted to be with him, but the problem is that he wont changeif i dont change and i wont change if he doesnt change. So, sometimes a feel so confused because sometimes i feel like im just hoping for something that will never happen. he tells me one thing and then tells other people another. sometimes i wish i could go inside of his mind just so i know how he truly feels and whats actually going on, im sick of hearing that he makes other people happen, ive heard that enough through the past year and it hurts too much each time that i just dont have the strength for it anymore. I dont know maybe im just wishing the impossible or maybe im just completely wrong and he is being honst with me but we will see, i know that my love for him will alway exist and so will his but sometimes i feel like he will never grow up and will always needs another girls satisfaction. i want him to know that im here for him and that i always will he doesnt need to feel that way anymore. i know he was hurt years back but life doesnt have to play off the pasts problems. i just wish i could reverse time so our relationship was never like this. but you cant do that so ill just have to deal with it! boo.
if i promised to change and if I carried the blame would you believe me then?
could you see it like me and believe what i see could you listen and remember that i love you only because i told you, because i told you so? and if you tell me you lied but i stayed true and tried would you believe me then?
and if your beauty was gone but my love lingered on you believe me then?
could you see it like me and believe what i see could you listen and remember that i love you only because i told you, because i told you so?
you take the wheel for now, im too tired to drive this one home anyhow, for now.
Ughhh with finals around the corner and my stress level skyrocketing, this is the last thing that i need. i dont need to think about ryan and worrying about him. we should be okay, everything should be okay. but its not because he always has to have these old habits that i feel like will never go away. do i kid myself that i hope maybe one day he'll change? i told myself that when we broke up that i wasnt going to care and i was just going to go with the flow and what happens happens. but of course that didnt happen and he still wanted to be with me and i of course wanted to be with him, but the problem is that he wont changeif i dont change and i wont change if he doesnt change. So, sometimes a feel so confused because sometimes i feel like im just hoping for something that will never happen. he tells me one thing and then tells other people another. sometimes i wish i could go inside of his mind just so i know how he truly feels and whats actually going on, im sick of hearing that he makes other people happen, ive heard that enough through the past year and it hurts too much each time that i just dont have the strength for it anymore. I dont know maybe im just wishing the impossible or maybe im just completely wrong and he is being honst with me but we will see, i know that my love for him will alway exist and so will his but sometimes i feel like he will never grow up and will always needs another girls satisfaction. i want him to know that im here for him and that i always will he doesnt need to feel that way anymore. i know he was hurt years back but life doesnt have to play off the pasts problems. i just wish i could reverse time so our relationship was never like this. but you cant do that so ill just have to deal with it! boo.