k, so it looks like i do sleep for longer stretches of time when i take my oxy. 
but i also stay awake for longer stretches of time prior to falling asleep. 
i seem to not remember my dreams as well... 
but i'm only going off of one night. pretty much no oxy for two weeks, then 20 mg yesterday. but i also feel like i am getting sick, bacterial/viral ( Read more... )

 there was a BART map ( Read more... )

today i am
morphine and the moon
silver and smoke
blue skies and blood
thick and sweet
as cherry syrup
fragile as glass
empty
smoke and mirrors
gets in your eyes
bloodshot
from the pain
of a shedding
womb scraped
hollow
with a scythe

I thought I had narcolepsy ( Read more... )

I have decided that I am not playing games with psychiatrist's to appease them anymore ( Read more... )

I have my OB-GYN appointment tomorrow. FINALLY. I am only slightly worried (bullshit, I'm pretty much terrified but remaining hopeful and pray pray praying that it will all work out well). Part of my worry is that I was initially under the impression that she is a pain management specialist, and now I am not totally sure if she is. Is she an OB-GYN ( Read more... )

"I left the south
I travelled north
I got confused I killed a horse
I can't help the way I feel..."

That line never ceases to make me laugh aloud.

I have been loving all over The Smiths lately.
Morrissey is just so silly and serious and sad and beautiful and ridiculous all at the same time. Not unlike me! Only I am hardly any kind of a musician. And he ( Read more... )

Thank god/s my period at least waited to start on my first of three days off. Too bad I have almost no medication for it. I woke up and immediately knew it had come by the characteristic pain in my abdomen. (So that's why I've been crying randomly for the past two days! I was afraid it was either due to boy or zoloft). I took part of what little I ( Read more... )