angsty huh? sorry, i was feeling down. much better now^^ /is praying that you keyboard survives
yeah ikr, to me, calling them by their real names makes them seem more, idk, real? calling them by stage name makes me feel superficial. i want to love them for who they really are, not the image that their company wants them to maintain. i never want that day to come either.
OMGJGKAJSGAJKDGS. oh okay, sorry. stand by me just started playing on my iPod, i had to skip it >< after i watched them perform countdown and stand by me, i have never been able to listen to those songs without crying. a curse, i guess. a small price to pay for seeing them.
idkk either. i just, feel like giving up. because i know that one day, kibum will fall in love and marry some other girls, and it'll probably be all over kpop sites SHINee's Key gets married!and i think my heart might just break
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I'm sorry D8 we're both such depressed people, you see? stop worrying about the quiet people, its happy (loud) people like us they should worry about. no one can tell when we're depressed.
i don't either. but they've changed. they've changed so much, and i hate to say it, but i've changed as well.
I just finished watching the latest episode of Master of Study, and half an hour later, when I just finished crying, I log on to LJ and I click on this and read this and I'm suddenly crying again. ♥
I haven't felt this way in such a long time; it's been so, so long since I last read a fic that moved me so much. The emotions you tried to bring out - Onew's acknowledging that love isn't having the one he loves, but seeing the one he loves happy, and Key's feelings of regret and pain at his blindness the time he left - were all conveyed so swiftly and subtly. It wasn't written in marker all over the plot, but I could feel it coursing through every little word. And when you wrote about their reactions when Key asked to leave? Yeah well, I'm still trying to pick up the little pieces of my heart that broke apart when I read that. Seriously, words cannot possibly convey how I feel about this story. All I can say is that I really, really love this, and I'm memming this for future reads. :] Thank you so much for sharing! ♥
I'm sorry..? I was crying while reading the translations for the song 'Because of You' by After School, then i wrote this, and i wouldn't stop crying.
idk, i think maybe, fics that are more personal, are more tear-jerking. I don't mean to sound like i'm boasting, but i feel that if the emotions are strong enough, the feelings that the readers feel from reading, are actually the writer's. do i make sense? whenever i look at jinki, he just strikes me as the understanding lover, loving kibum to the point that he is willing to forsake his own happiness for kibum's. (and yet there is a selfish part of him, because if you think about, he's willing to let go of the whole of SHINee's happiness just for kibum.) and kibum seems like someone who makes rash decisions and regret later. over the years, i have grown a sort of distaste for stories where i know exactly what's going on. i like using my imagination, and i like subtle details. i'm sorry about you heart, do you need help picking up the pieces?my morale is not to drag a sad scene
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No, don't apologize at all. I think as much as happy relationships are what everybody wants, a relationship isn't a relationship without its fair share of pain and agony. Because only if you get through that anguish can you call your bond a relationship. Please don't cry, though. D: /hugs ♥
I finished reading everything you said above, and I feel like crying myself right now. The sheer power of the truth you wrote up there is so strong; I agree that the feelings in the fic, the feelings that thre readers feel - they're all actually the writer's feelings. I've written stories before in which the readers comment and tell me how they feel, and a lot of them are images how I feel myself. Jinki is, without a doubt, an understanding, loving person - he struck me as that whenever I look at him too - but he also seems like the type that would go out of his way to make someone happy, especially if it's the one he holds closest to his heart. Like you said, it's selfish in a sense, but the fact that he's giving up everything for Kibum is but a
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sorry, i was feeling down.
much better now^^
/is praying that you keyboard survives
yeah ikr,
to me, calling them by their real names makes them seem more,
idk, real?
calling them by stage name makes me feel superficial.
i want to love them for who they really are,
not the image that their company wants them to maintain.
i never want that day to come either.
OMGJGKAJSGAJKDGS.
oh okay, sorry.
stand by me just started playing on my iPod,
i had to skip it ><
after i watched them perform countdown and stand by me,
i have never been able to listen to those songs without crying.
a curse, i guess.
a small price to pay for seeing them.
idkk either.
i just, feel like giving up.
because i know that one day,
kibum will fall in love and marry some other girls,
and it'll probably be all over kpop sites
SHINee's Key gets married!and i think my heart might just break ( ... )
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/hugs back
thanks bb (:
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Please don't.
While going home from your place just now,
I thought about all we talked about today;
the changes, disbanding, leaving...
And I cried. I haven't cried in a long while,
but today, I did.
We know that we don't want anything to change.
Well, I don't.
If Hankyung leaves, I'll definitely still love him.
But the love, it will somehow feel different.
On a happier note, Wonder Boy is playing now! (:
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we're both such depressed people,
you see?
stop worrying about the quiet people,
its happy (loud) people like us they should worry about.
no one can tell when we're depressed.
i don't either.
but they've changed.
they've changed so much,
and i hate to say it,
but i've changed as well.
i know how you feel, babe.
Key was an extra in Wonder Boy's MV.
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but isn't that a line of Monster?
Oh, darling. I'm proud of you.
But that line is pretty suitable for fics;
the title of my first fic is 'Just like that'. (:
P/S; anti-climax but, GREEN PAINT!
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i already told you why earlier today XD
lol, i'm broke honey, you know that.
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I haven't felt this way in such a long time; it's been so, so long since I last read a fic that moved me so much. The emotions you tried to bring out - Onew's acknowledging that love isn't having the one he loves, but seeing the one he loves happy, and Key's feelings of regret and pain at his blindness the time he left - were all conveyed so swiftly and subtly. It wasn't written in marker all over the plot, but I could feel it coursing through every little word. And when you wrote about their reactions when Key asked to leave? Yeah well, I'm still trying to pick up the little pieces of my heart that broke apart when I read that. Seriously, words cannot possibly convey how I feel about this story. All I can say is that I really, really love this, and I'm memming this for future reads. :] Thank you so much for sharing! ♥
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I was crying while reading the translations for the song 'Because of You' by After School,
then i wrote this, and i wouldn't stop crying.
idk, i think maybe, fics that are more personal, are more tear-jerking.
I don't mean to sound like i'm boasting,
but i feel that if the emotions are strong enough,
the feelings that the readers feel from reading,
are actually the writer's.
do i make sense?
whenever i look at jinki, he just strikes me as the understanding lover,
loving kibum to the point that he is willing to forsake his own happiness for kibum's.
(and yet there is a selfish part of him, because if you think about, he's willing to let go of the whole of SHINee's happiness just for kibum.)
and kibum seems like someone who makes rash decisions and regret later.
over the years, i have grown a sort of distaste for stories where i know exactly what's going on.
i like using my imagination, and i like subtle details.
i'm sorry about you heart,
do you need help picking up the pieces?my morale is not to drag a sad scene ( ... )
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I finished reading everything you said above, and I feel like crying myself right now. The sheer power of the truth you wrote up there is so strong; I agree that the feelings in the fic, the feelings that thre readers feel - they're all actually the writer's feelings. I've written stories before in which the readers comment and tell me how they feel, and a lot of them are images how I feel myself. Jinki is, without a doubt, an understanding, loving person - he struck me as that whenever I look at him too - but he also seems like the type that would go out of his way to make someone happy, especially if it's the one he holds closest to his heart. Like you said, it's selfish in a sense, but the fact that he's giving up everything for Kibum is but a ( ... )
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relationships are never perfect,
and it is with the pain and hurt that you grow clsoer.
jinki's love for kibum is the epitome of unconditional love,
yet it proves that sometimes,
even the most unconditional of loves can be selfish♥
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and i'm teary rn, okay?
just because this short beautiful piece ;__;
thanks for sharing btw :)
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/offers tissue
thanks for reading♥
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