I'm sorry..? I was crying while reading the translations for the song 'Because of You' by After School, then i wrote this, and i wouldn't stop crying.
idk, i think maybe, fics that are more personal, are more tear-jerking. I don't mean to sound like i'm boasting, but i feel that if the emotions are strong enough, the feelings that the readers feel from reading, are actually the writer's. do i make sense? whenever i look at jinki, he just strikes me as the understanding lover, loving kibum to the point that he is willing to forsake his own happiness for kibum's. (and yet there is a selfish part of him, because if you think about, he's willing to let go of the whole of SHINee's happiness just for kibum.) and kibum seems like someone who makes rash decisions and regret later. over the years, i have grown a sort of distaste for stories where i know exactly what's going on. i like using my imagination, and i like subtle details. i'm sorry about you heart, do you need help picking up the pieces? my morale is not to drag a sad scene, because then, the reader already knows what's going to happen before it does, so when it actually happens, it's not as impactful. however, if you just be honest, and go straight to the point, it gives them less time to idk, realize what has happened, and when it does, it hurts, really it hurts. i sound like a sadist, but trust me, the only reason i'm like this is because i've been treated like this XD and omg, you're memming? i am so touched. thank you so much for reading^^ ♥
No, don't apologize at all. I think as much as happy relationships are what everybody wants, a relationship isn't a relationship without its fair share of pain and agony. Because only if you get through that anguish can you call your bond a relationship. Please don't cry, though. D: /hugs ♥
I finished reading everything you said above, and I feel like crying myself right now. The sheer power of the truth you wrote up there is so strong; I agree that the feelings in the fic, the feelings that thre readers feel - they're all actually the writer's feelings. I've written stories before in which the readers comment and tell me how they feel, and a lot of them are images how I feel myself. Jinki is, without a doubt, an understanding, loving person - he struck me as that whenever I look at him too - but he also seems like the type that would go out of his way to make someone happy, especially if it's the one he holds closest to his heart. Like you said, it's selfish in a sense, but the fact that he's giving up everything for Kibum is but a glimpse to how strongly he feels for him.
I was crying while reading the translations for the song 'Because of You' by After School,
then i wrote this, and i wouldn't stop crying.
idk, i think maybe, fics that are more personal, are more tear-jerking.
I don't mean to sound like i'm boasting,
but i feel that if the emotions are strong enough,
the feelings that the readers feel from reading,
are actually the writer's.
do i make sense?
whenever i look at jinki, he just strikes me as the understanding lover,
loving kibum to the point that he is willing to forsake his own happiness for kibum's.
(and yet there is a selfish part of him, because if you think about, he's willing to let go of the whole of SHINee's happiness just for kibum.)
and kibum seems like someone who makes rash decisions and regret later.
over the years, i have grown a sort of distaste for stories where i know exactly what's going on.
i like using my imagination, and i like subtle details.
i'm sorry about you heart,
do you need help picking up the pieces?
my morale is not to drag a sad scene,
because then, the reader already knows what's going to happen before it does,
so when it actually happens, it's not as impactful.
however, if you just be honest, and go straight to the point,
it gives them less time to idk, realize what has happened,
and when it does,
it hurts, really it hurts.
i sound like a sadist, but trust me, the only reason i'm like this is because i've been treated like this XD
and omg, you're memming?
i am so touched.
thank you so much for reading^^ ♥
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I finished reading everything you said above, and I feel like crying myself right now. The sheer power of the truth you wrote up there is so strong; I agree that the feelings in the fic, the feelings that thre readers feel - they're all actually the writer's feelings. I've written stories before in which the readers comment and tell me how they feel, and a lot of them are images how I feel myself. Jinki is, without a doubt, an understanding, loving person - he struck me as that whenever I look at him too - but he also seems like the type that would go out of his way to make someone happy, especially if it's the one he holds closest to his heart. Like you said, it's selfish in a sense, but the fact that he's giving up everything for Kibum is but a glimpse to how strongly he feels for him.
Thank you so much for writing as well. ;w; ♥
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relationships are never perfect,
and it is with the pain and hurt that you grow clsoer.
jinki's love for kibum is the epitome of unconditional love,
yet it proves that sometimes,
even the most unconditional of loves can be selfish♥
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